I crawled all the way under the bed until, still hidden in a fall of blankets, I could see their faces.
"Tell me."
"Samuel told you...told us that she'd flirted with that one. She hadn't meant to, but you don't always see it until it happens. Right?"
"Right," Adam agreed.
"Samuel said he told her that she better not do that in front of you."
He waited for Adam's nod to continue. "But she needs to help her friend and that means going to this man's house. It's all right, though, because there will be a lot of other people and she won't flirt because she knows that it's a danger. And she doesn't flirt. She behaves just like an interested guest--which is going to piss him off at her."
"How do you know she didn't flirt?" Adam asked, then in response to something I hadn't caught, he moved a hand in a negating manner. "No, I don't doubt you. But how do you know?"
"It's Mercy," Ben said simply. "She wouldn't know how to betray someone she cared about. Once she noticed, she'd stop and not start again."
He kept his gaze on Adam's face, but his head was canted so he was looking up into the Alpha's eyes rather than challenging him. "But she knows that she's skirting the line. She knows that you wouldn't like it that she went to his house...not that she's done anything wrong...but it feels that way." He started pacing again, but he'd calmed down. Now that he was talking about me. "I don't know why she went back again. Maybe he tells her that he knows who killed Zee, or that he knows something about O'Donnell or the stuff that was stolen. He would know, wouldn't he? He lured her to his house because he thought she posed a danger to him--or maybe just because he knew she had that damned walking stick that followed her around and he wanted it. Or maybe he just wanted to get even with her for rejecting him."
"Right."
"Right. So she knows that you won't like it if she goes back. She knows that you'll be all territorial about her going to a man's home even if she's just trying to keep Zee safe. Did you know that until a couple of days ago, she thought that your declaring her your mate was just politics? Just a way to keep her safe from the pack?"
There was a little silence.
"Honey told me that last night. She explained to Mercy that it was a little more. So Mercy learned more than you intended her to."
"Pressure makes her run in the other direction," Adam said dryly. "I thought I'd wait to explain until matters became critical."
"So she knows that it's more than words. She knows that your declaration makes you vulnerable."
"Make your point."
"So, she knew she should call you and tell you that she was going to the bastard's house. But she also knows that you'll tell her no and she feels like she needs to go for Zee's sake--or whatever reason Tim found to persuade her."
"Okay."
"And maybe she doesn't like checking in with you for every move she makes. In any case, she knows she should call you and she doesn't. She chooses to go to Tim's house, but she also feels on some level that it's the wrong thing to do. Her choice. Her fault. Her fault when she drinks from that bloody fairy cup. Her fault that he--"
Just that fast Adam had Ben on the ground underneath him while he snarled. "It's not her fault she was raped," he growled.
Ben lay limp and gave Adam his throat, but he didn't quit talking, even though a tear slid down his cheek. "She thinks so."
Adam stilled.
"What's more," he continued hoarsely. "I bet she wonders if she was raped at all."
Adam sat back, releasing Ben entirely. "Explain it to me." His voice was very soft.
Ben shook his head and put an arm over his eyes. "You saw it. You heard him. That drink took away her ability to resist, but he didn't just make her take off her clothes. He made her feel, made her want."
Adam shook his head. "And you heard her...You saw her. She told him, `No.' He made this friend of his drown himself with a smile on his face--and he couldn't keep Mercy under control while he was with her. He had to pour the frickin' stuff down her throat." Was that pride in his voice?
"But she took off her clothes and she touched him."
"She fought it," Adam snarled. "You saw. You heard her. You saw Nemane's shock when she saw Mercy's resistance. She couldn't believe it when Mercy hit him with the walking stick."
Ben whispered, "When he told her that she wanted him, that she loved him--she felt it. Did you see her face? It was real to her. That's why she could kill him while he was wearing that fucking fairy horse pelt. Wasn't that what she said? In that moment Mercy loved him so she couldn't be his enemy--otherwise she wouldn't have been able to kill him while he was wearing it."
Adam believed it. I saw his face change and heard the growl that rumbled in his chest. Now, he understood. Now, he'd hate me for betraying him.