The Pastor's Heart - By Desiree Future Page 0,29
for my SUV to handle. That way the suitcases could be mounted to the hood and the rest could still fit inside my trunk. Anyway, the ride up to Bel Air was great that day. Kingston was great company and his gray eyes always seemed to be dancing whenever I looked at him.” Sinclair had started to explain.
“We had just left the second church and were on our way back home. Kingston asked me to make a stop on the side of the road because he needed a minute, so I gave him some privacy by walking across the road. After a few minutes he called me to come over to him and I could not believe my eyes. Kingston had laid out a picnic lunch under a tree with jazz music coming from the speakers inside the suitcase.” Sinclair explained remembering it like it happened yesterday.
“Awe,” is all Robyn managed to say.
“He made a seafood salad, fresh fruit kabobs and homemade lemonade for us. We ate under the shady tree while listening to a jazz cd that Kingston made. He had a great selection of music that dated back to the early twenties. We danced to the music and just had a wonderful, wonderful time,” Sinclair said while trying to relive the glorious moment.
“It’s about time you went out and had some fun. I’m so happy for you,” Robyn said as she hugged Sinclair.
“That was the most romantic thing a man had ever done for me. I was actually floored.” Sinclair couldn’t stop smiling just thinking about what Kingston did for her. “I just don’t want to get my heart broken again.” Sinclair said as she got up and started walking.
“Sinclair, wait,” Robyn said running to catch up to her.
“No one wants to get hurt. But did you know that you hurt yourself when you carry that fear around with you. You can’t carry old baggage into new relationships?” Sinclair was running scared and Robyn knew it. Whenever Sinclair got scared she always ran. “Did you know that Sinclair?”
“Robyn, he told me he is falling in love with me.” Sinclair babbled on.
“He is not falling in love with you; he is in love with you. He invited you to The Gala which is a black tie affair to meet his parents and friends too. Hint. Hint. That man is in love with you.” Robyn concluded as they started walking again toward a handbag store. “And by the sign of you getting nervous, you are falling for him. Shoot, I see the smile that crosses your face when you talk about him, your eyes light up and your dimples start jumping around.”
“I don’t know. I don’t know,” Sinclair through her hands in front of her face.
“You don’t know what? How to let someone take care of you and relax for a change? Or how to receive love when it’s given to you with no strings attached. Here’s another one. You don’t know how not to be scared. You need to stop this madness. If he didn’t see you in his future there’d be no way he would bring you among his peers.”
“Robyn you have been married for years so you wouldn’t understand?” Sinclair shook her head.
“Just because I’m married doesn’t mean I don’t understand fear. I was scared as heck when I met Desmond. But I got over my fear and saw him for him and not anyone else. See this is the crap I hate. We as women say we want a good man but when one comes along we don’t know how to act. We are so used to getting dogged out by the no good men, that when the good one comes along we go running with our tails between our legs. I love you like a sister. Let that man love you.”
“Robyn I’m sorry. I guess you’re right, I am scared.” Sinclair admitted “I am so used to doing things for myself that I find it hard to let Kingston help me. I mean honestly juggling as much as I do it is a lot. It is extremely hard but it needs to be done and here comes Kingston telling me to sit down and put my feet up while he does everything. I mean I have been independent since I was a kid. It’s something that I just do and now to back off is a lot, especially when that is all I know.”
“You grew up far too early and now God has blessed you