Parable of the Talents - Octavia E Butler Page 0,4

us, and he’ll judge us according to how we use them.”

The parable continues. To each of the two servants who had traded well and made profit for their lord, the lord said, “ ‘Well done, thou good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.’ ”

But to the servant who had done nothing with his silver talent except bury it in the ground to keep it safe, the lord said harsher words. “ ‘Thou wicked and slothful servant…’ ” he began. And he ordered his men to, “ ‘Take therefore the talent from him and give it unto him which hath ten talents. For unto everyone that hath shall be given, and he shall have in abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath.’ ”

When my father has said these words, my mother vanishes. I haven’t even been able to see her whole face, and now she’s gone.

I don’t understand this. It scares me. I can see now that other people are vanishing too. Most have already gone. Beloved ghosts…

My father is gone. My stepmother calls out to him in Spanish the way she did sometimes when she was excited, “No! How can we live now? They’ll break in. They’ll kill us all! We must build the wall higher!”

And she’s gone. My brothers are gone. I’m alone—as I was alone that night five years ago. The house is ashes and rubble around me. It doesn’t burn or crumble or even fade to ashes, but somehow, in an instant, it is a ruin, open to the night sky. I see stars, a quarter moon, and a streak of light, moving, rising into the sky like some life force escaping. By the light of all three of these, I see shadows, large, moving, threatening. I fear these shadows, but I see no way to escape them. The wall is still there, surrounding our neighborhood, looming over me much higher than it ever truly did. So much higher… It was supposed to keep danger out. It failed years ago. Now it fails again. Danger is walled in with me. I want to run, to escape, to hide, but now my own hands, my feet begin to fade away. I hear thunder. I see the streak of light rise higher in the sky, grow brighter.

Then I scream. I fall. Too much of my body is gone, vanished away. I can’t stay upright, can’t catch myself as I fall and fall and fall…

I awoke here in my cabin at Acorn, tangled in my blankets, half on and half off my bed. Had I screamed aloud? I didn’t know. I never seem to have these nightmares when Bankole is with me, so he can’t tell me how much noise I make. It’s just as well. His practice already costs him enough sleep, and this night must be worse than most for him.

It’s three in the morning now, but last night, just after dark, some group, some gang, perhaps, attacked the Dovetree place just north of us. There were, yesterday at this time, 22 people living at Dovetree—the old man, his wife, and his two youngest daughters; his five married sons, their wives and their kids. All of these people are gone except for the two youngest wives and the three little children they were able to grab as they ran. Two of the kids are hurt, and one of the women has had a heart attack, of all things. Bankole has treated her before. He says she was born with a heart defect that should have been taken care of when she was a baby. But she’s only twenty, and around the time she was born, her family, like most people, had little or no money. They worked hard themselves and put the strongest of their kids to work at ages eight or ten. Their daughter’s heart problem was always either going to kill her or let her live. It wasn’t going to be fixed.

Now it had nearly killed her. Bankole was sleeping—or more likely staying awake—in the clinic room of the school tonight, keeping an eye on her and the two injured kids. Thanks to my hyperempathy syndrome, he can’t have his clinic here at the house. I pick up enough of other people’s pain as things are, and he worries about it. He keeps wanting to give