The Negotiator (Professionals, #7) - Jessica Gadziala Page 0,67
decent guy who would never actually kidnap someone."
"He's done a lot for them," I defended immediately, knee-jerk.
A shadow crossed Quin's face as he listened to me. "I'm going to need to speak to you alone, Miller. Outside," he added. "Is that going to be a problem?" he asked, tone seething as he glanced at Christopher.
"I need to talk to him," I added to Christopher in a quiet voice.
"Okay," he said, to me, though, not to Quin. "Send Collis in so you can have some privacy."
I gave him a tight nod as I followed my boss outside.
"Your boss said to head inside," he told Collis, who turned his gaze to me instead, brow raising.
"He did," I told him, giving him a reassuring nod.
"Look at that," Quin said when we were alone. "They listen to the woman of the house."
"Quin..."
"Look, Miller. I know. You have a thing for the clients sometimes. I get it. They're your type. Tall, dark, and dangerous enough to be a little fun. I get it. But that man had your friend drug and kidnap you, drag you to a foreign country, and then forced you into working for him."
"A financial agreement was reached," I told him, chin raising.
"Did you have a choice, or were you simply making the best of a bad situation?"
Quin didn't get to be the boss because he was dumb. The man had great observation skills. And he knew all of us pretty damn well.
"I didn't have much of a choice," I admitted. "I knew that as soon as we made it to shore, there was no coming home until the job was done. And since Bellamy and Fenway had already made up their minds on who they were loyal to in this situation..."
"I'll deal with Bellamy and Fenway," he said, a promise in his voice, and I didn't want to ever be on the receiving end of a man like Quin's wrath. "But, for fuck's sake, Miller, you're fucking a man who held you against your will? What the hell is going on with you?"
"I don't have a good answer to that. It just... happened. A lot has happened since that day on the yacht, Quin. And I think we can all agree that worry over a loved one can make us do crazy things we wouldn't normally ever even consider. I mean, can you look me in the face, and tell me with one-hundred-percent certainty that if someone took Aven, you wouldn't move heaven and earth to bring her back? That if you heard about someone like me who could help, you wouldn't do exactly what Christopher did?"
I knew he couldn't.
"There are channels, Miller."
"He didn't have time."
"We handle emergency situations every month, babe. No one is more equipped to handle setting up hostage negotiations on the drop of a dime than we are."
"He didn't know that. Or he didn't want to risk us telling him no. And he had Bells there in his ear saying he could cut out the middle man. I think we both can see why he did it this way."
"That doesn't mean it's right."
"No," I agreed, nodding.
"And it doesn't mean you should be able to look past it enough to fall into bed with him."
As a general rule, not many people could bring me down. I had worked really hard to build myself up, made of materials no one could chip away at.
But Quin, the man who gave me a chance, the man who offered me a life I knew I never could have gotten without him; he could make me feel really small and really breakable.
"He has been good to me."
"He's kept you against your will."
"To keep me safe."
"I keep you safe," Quin shot back, voice raising. "Gunner, Smith, Kai, Finn, Lincoln, and even fucking Ranger if need be, keep you safe. But he didn't give you that option, did he?"
No, no he didn't.
But at that point, I wasn't even questioning him.
"Look, I get it," he said, even though I really, really didn't think he did. "Things have been survival, life and death. And he has fed you and clothed you and kept you alive. I understand how that can foster feelings that the Miller I know, the Miller I helped train, the Miller I have worked side-by-side with for years, would never feel toward someone who did this to her. And I am asking you to see this situation through the eyes of the woman you were just a couple weeks ago."