But we were on an airplane with three crew members just beyond a wall so thin it may as well have been a curtain.
Every muscle in my body locked. What the hell was I doing? I’d wanted to show her what the need crawling beneath my skin felt like and gone for the easiest example, and now I had us so worked up I was a zip and fabric shuffle away from being inside her.
You’re using her.
Just like she was a random hookup backstage or on the tour bus, when she was so much more.
“Nix?” Her brow knit in concern. “You okay?”
God, she was worried about me.
“You deserve better than this,” I ground out.
“How about you let me decide what I deserve.” She kissed me, swirling her tongue around mine. It took all of two seconds for me to respond and assume control of the kiss, but then she swayed, moving against my fingers, and I lost it.
“Zoe—”
“Please,” she whispered. “I’m on fire.”
Hell yeah, she was. She was so hot and liquid against my fingers I knew I’d slide home in a single thrust, but I wasn’t going there. I’d cut off my own dick before I used her like that, no matter how badly I wanted her. I wasn’t even sure want was the right word anymore. She’d become a need, like air, or water, or music.
But I could ease her.
“Come here.” I cupped the back of her neck and brought her mouth to mine as I circled her clit with my fingers.
I swallowed every moan, every sigh, every gasp as I built her pleasure higher and higher, and when her hips writhed over mine, I strummed her clit fast and light until her thighs locked, then trembled. She was so close I could almost taste it in her kiss.
I deepened the pressure and pushed her right over the edge, capturing every sound from her mouth with mine as she rode out her orgasm.
It would have been so easy to kick her into a second—she was that responsive—but I eased her down instead, ignoring the demands of my impatient body.
When she lifted her head, her cheeks were flushed, her eyes wide, her breaths ragged—just like mine. I’d never seen a more beautiful woman in my life, never wanted one more than I wanted her in that moment.
“Nixon,” she whispered, her hands trailing down my chest.
Oh God. My control was whisper-thin and disintegrating with every inch she traveled. I felt that touch in every cell in my body.
Not here. Not like this.
I captured her wrists, then flipped us so her back was against the couch, pinning her hands above her head. Instead of demanding to be freed, she gripped my hips with her thighs and lifted her mouth to mine.
I lunged backward, barely managing to stay on my feet. Then I practically ran to the back of the jet and flung myself into the bathroom, closing and locking the door behind me. The counter was solid under my palms as I balanced my weight, my chest heaving as I recited every single reason I couldn’t go back out there.
She was on staff.
She had her own valid issues about what would happen if we did this and it got out.
We’d already agreed not to do the very thing we’d already done.
She deserved better than to be fucked on what was pretty much an aerial tour bus.
She deserved better than me, period.
I refused to use her like I had the innumerable women who’d come before.
“Nixon?” she asked through the door.
Just the sound of her voice was enough to send a shot of longing down my spine. Get a fucking grip.
“Yep.” I lifted my head and saw someone I barely recognized—not just in the healthier lines of my face but in the stark fear that lingered in my eyes.
Zoe Shannon scared the shit out of me.
“Were you thinking about coming out?”
My fingers gripped the counter so hard my knuckles turned white under the ink that marked them. The door was all that separated me from the heaven of her body, from treating her like one of those girls outside my dressing room.
“Nope.”
“Oh. Okay.”
The fact I was actually hiding in the bathroom from the sexiest woman on the planet only made me grit my teeth even harder.
“Now is when you choose to grow a conscience?” I muttered at the guy in the mirror. The timing was shitty, but nevertheless, here we were.
I stayed in that bathroom until the captain requested we