he did, why would he come after me? How could that lead to him?”
“Well, he’s crazy,” Pete says. “How about that for a start?”
“Sure, but I repeat—how would he know?”
“No idea. Listen, Billy, are you holding anything back? Anything at all?”
“No.”
“I think you are,” Isabelle says. She cocks her head. “Hey, you weren’t sleeping with her, were you?”
Hodges shifts his gaze to her. “What do you think, Izzy? Look at me.”
She holds his eyes for a moment, then drops them. Hodges can’t believe how close she just came. Women’s intuition, he thinks, and then, Probably a good thing I haven’t lost any more weight, or put that Just For Men shit in my hair.
“Look, Pete, I want to shake. Go home and have a beer and try to get my head around this.”
“You swear you’re not holding anything back? This is you and me, now.”
Hodges passes up his last chance to come clean without a qualm. “Not a thing.”
Pete tells him to stay in touch; they’ll want him in tomorrow or Friday for a formal statement.
“Not a problem. And Pete? In the immediate future I’d give my car a once-over before driving it, if I were you.”
At the door, Pete puts an arm over Hodges’s shoulders and gives him a hug. “I’m sorry about this,” he says. “Sorry about what happened and about all the questions.”
“It’s okay. You’re doing the job.”
Pete tightens his grip and whispers in Hodges’s ear. “You are holding back. You think I’ve been taking stupid pills?”
For a moment Hodges rethinks his options. Then he remembers Janey saying He’s ours.
He takes Pete by the arms, looks him full in the face, and says, “I’m just as mystified about this as you are. Trust me.”
25
Hodges crosses the Detective Division bullpen, fielding the curious glances and leading questions with a stone face that only breaks once. Cassie Sheen, with whom he worked most often when Pete was on vacation, says, “Look at you. Still alive and uglier than ever.”
He smiles. “If it isn’t Cassie Sheen, the Botox Queen.” He lifts an arm in mock defense when she picks a paperweight up off her desk and brandishes it. It all feels both fake and real at the same time. Like one of those girl-fights on afternoon TV.
In the hall, there’s a line of chairs near the snack and soda machines. Sitting in two of the chairs are Aunt Charlotte and Uncle Henry. Holly isn’t with them, and Hodges instinctively touches the glasses case in his pants pocket. He asks Uncle Henry if he’s feeling better. Uncle Henry says he is, and thanks him. He turns to Aunt Charlotte and asks how she’s doing.
“I’m fine. It’s Holly I’m worried about. I think she blames herself, because she’s the reason . . . you know.”
Hodges knows. The reason Janey was driving his car. Of course Janey would have been in it anyway, but he doubts if that changes the way Holly feels.
“I wish you’d talk to her. You bonded with her, somehow.” Her eyes take on an unpleasant gleam. “The way you bonded with Janelle. You must have a way about you.”
“I’ll do that,” Hodges says, and he will, but Jerome is going to talk to her first. Assuming the number on the glasses case works, that is. For all he knows, that number rings a landline in . . . where was it? Cincinnati? Cleveland?
“I hope we’re not supposed to identify her,” Uncle Henry says. In one hand he holds a Styrofoam cup of coffee. He’s hardly touched it, and Hodges isn’t surprised. The police department coffee is notorious. “How can we? She was blown to bits.”
“Don’t be an idiot,” Aunt Charlotte says. “They don’t want us to do that. They can’t.”
Hodges says, “If she’s ever been fingerprinted—most people have—they’ll do it that way. They may show you photographs of her clothes, or personal pieces of jewelry.”
“How would we know about her jewelry?” Aunt Charlotte cries. A cop getting a soda turns to look at her. “And I hardly noticed what she was wearing!”
Hodges guesses she priced out every stitch, but doesn’t comment. “They may have other questions.” Some about him. “It shouldn’t take long.”
There’s an elevator, but Hodges chooses the stairs. On the landing one flight down, he leans against the wall, eyes closed, and takes half a dozen big, shuddering breaths. The tears come now. He swipes them away with his sleeve. Aunt Charlotte expressed concern about Holly—a concern Hodges shares—but no sorrow about her blown-to-bits niece. He guesses