better clutter anyway. Apart from my bed and a small nightstand, the only solid piece of furniture is a thrifted wardrobe in the corner that I fell in love with for its peeling-white-paint-over-old-wood aesthetic.
Yawning again, I march over to it and fish out a plain sweater and jeans. As I get dressed, I glance out of the window and admire the grungy, trash-strewn street below. This part of the city is already bustling with workers scurrying off to their nine-to-fives and the homeless men who troll this block with their belongings piled into shopping carts. A lazy sun teeters over the horizon, barely visible beyond a sea of skyscrapers, and I feel a smile tug on the corner of my mouth. It’s days like this when I love living here the most, right in the thick of it all—the human condition. It may not be the safe, cloistered existence I lived on my family’s estate, but in so many ways…
It’s better.
At least during the few moments of the day when I can forget that Branden moved to this city when I did almost two years ago.
Sighing, I enter my closet-sized bathroom and wash up. I’m in the middle of towel-drying my hair when I hear my ringtone going off. My heart pounds as I creep into my room and fish it from my bag. The remnants of masculine fingerprints are still smeared over the touch screen—larger than my own, oval-shaped, and marred with unfamiliar ridges. A shudder runs through me as I wipe them off with my sleeve. Then I answer the phone without really scanning the name flashing across the screen.
Only one person would ever call me this early anyway.
“Hey!” I roll my eyes up to the ceiling even as I force pep into my voice. “Yes, Brand—”
“Hello?” The crisp, feminine tone doesn’t belong to my brother, and every muscle in my body goes rigid. “Is this Hannah Dewitt?”
“Who is this?”
“So, this is you. Hannah, do you remember me?” Her voice triggers a memory. A woman with streaky makeup and tears streaming down her face as she screamed at me from behind a police barricade. “You know what happened!” she’d shouted. “Just tell the truth! Stop protecting him! What did he do to Alexandria? What did he do to my daughter?”
I rip the receiver from my ear as if the act alone can make her disappear. Vanish the same way I had to. Branden had to. “I’m sorry—” I swipe at my home screen, attempting to hang up. “You have the wrong number—”
“You know who I am,” the woman declares, loudly enough that I can hear her despite the phone being several feet from my ear. No matter how hard I swipe to make her silent. “I saw your story in the paper. It was good.” She waits as if expecting me to respond.
I don’t.
“Hannah…” She sighs. “I really just wanted to talk to you. About Lexi. Remember her?”
Finally, my finger moves properly and hits the red button, ending the call. I drop the phone and sink to my knees, practically crawling under my bed in search of my box. I go through the ritual of removing the lid and palming every object over and over again. The article. The ChapSticks. Nail polish. Everything but the bracelet at first.
The cherry-flavored pink balm was from a convenience store near the border during the trip from Pennsylvania. Dad drove me the entire way, and we didn’t say a single word. I don’t think he even looked at me once. Bran had blown up my cell phone, and I’d made eye contact with the bored, pretty cashier behind the counter as I swiped this from a display just below her line of sight.
The pearly nail polish was from a gas station last week. But those memories can only distract me for so long before I find myself reaching for another object, twisting the cool metal between my fingers. This stupid, fucking bracelet…
There’s a word for how I got every last item in this box—stealing. Though, I think of it more as…anchoring. Little things to tether me when it feels like I’m spiraling, and nothing short of screaming can bring me back—tiny little things no one would ever miss.
Either because they never noticed them in the first place, or because they aren’t around anymore to care.
Or they’re a deviant asshole who doesn’t deserve to own them.
Slowly, I return the bracelet and my other trinkets. Then I shove the box under my bed and