Mason (Carter Brothers #2) - Lisa Helen Gray Page 0,73
were together. I could feel it as strongly as what I felt it for you. But what you didn’t do back then, but are doing now, is giving us a try. It’s more than I ever wanted from you Mason. I would have given you anything, everything, just to be with you, I still would. Even at school, I’d tell Harlow I’d spend one night with you if it meant I could just be with you. What I never counted on was the way I felt when I was actually with you,’’ I shrug, my eyes glazing over from the raw emotion releasing inside me. I needed to get it off my chest, to make him understand and I hope now he does.
“Wow! I really don’t deserve you, but I promise I’m going to try honey,’’ he smiles and I smile back at him.
The waitress comes over and takes our drink order and because of how long she took to get to us, we had already decided on what to have for dinner, so we give her our food orders too. Once she disappears I give Mason a smirk.
“What?’’ he asks after taking a sip of his beer.
“You didn’t look at her once.’’
“Who?’’ he asks confused looking around.
“The waitress?’’ I tell him, looking closely to see if he’s bullshitting me.
“Babe, seriously, I’m with you. Why would I want to look at someone else?’’
I’m too shocked to speak. I open and close my mouth what feels like a thousand times until I give up and just keep it closed.
“Did you go through the nursery?’’ he asks making conversation.
“Yeah,’’ I smile, my mind picturing the amazing nursery he built for our princess. It still warms my heart that he did that as a surprise for me.
“Do we need something else? Did I miss something?’’
“We need a steriliser for the bottles-‘’
“Hold on, don’t they suck on your... tits?’’ he says pointing to my ample chest.
“Yes Mason she will, but she might not latch on, or like it. I read it in one of those pregnancy books you’d gotten me.’’
“Oh, I didn’t get them for you. I needed to do some research so I went out and got everything I’d need to know. I read about breast feeding. It also says you might not feel comfortable to do it. It can be painful. Also you may have an infection which can stop the process of breastfeeding.’’
“Either way I’m bottle feeding, Mason. I’m not going to be up through the night breastfeeding on my own. So I can breastfeed in a bottle.’’
“Okay, now I’m confused.’’
“I can’t believe we’re talking about this here,’’ I chuckle. “You can get a breast pump that pumps your milk into a bottle.’’
“Like milking a cow?’’ he chuckles, his eyes crinkling at the corners.
“Yes,’’ I say dryly, my eyes rolling.
“What else then? I was thinking about going pushchair shopping soon, oh and we’ll need a car seat. I read online somewhere that some baby shop in town will fit them in safely for you. I think it’s worth a shot, at least then they can show us how to do it. Safety is important.’’
“You’ve been thinking hard about this?’’ I tease.
“I have babe. We will also need to get your bag ready for the hospital. I have the list written down at home. I’ll give it to you to look over to see if I missed anything.’’
“WOW! You really have thought of everything,’’ I giggle. “We also need to get her some clothes. I know she won’t need a lot, and a lot of people will buy her outfits, but she’ll need a lot of various sizes. Then we need to stock up on nappies and baby wipes.’’
“I don’t want to use baby wipes on our baby. I read in one of those books that it burns their skin, so I’m not risking it. I’ve got a list ready to take when I next go to Kara to get nappies and cotton wool and so on...’’
My face must look a picture. I’m open mouthed, wide eyed and completely stunned to silence. The only sound you can hear is the chatter from the people around us.
Mason really has thought long and hard about everything, especially if he’s already written a list to go to Kara with. Kara is a large store that sells everything in bulk. They sell anything from washing powder, toilet roll, nappies to sweets. The place is huge and so much cheaper than buying them separately in a shop.