She looked away. "And you didn't because of what happened in the park?"
"And because..." God, just how far did he want to go with this? Did he really want her to know how much he was feeling her? No, he thought. She was looking totally shell-shocked. Now was hardly the time to come clean with the happy news that a male vampire had bonded with her. "Because it's an invasion of your privacy."
In the silence that followed, he could see her working over the events, the implications, the reality of the situation. And then her body let on the sweet scent or arousal. She was remembering how he'd kissed her.
Abruptly, she winced and frowned. And the fragrance was cut off.
"Ah, Mary, in the park, when I was keeping away from you while we - "
She held her hand up, stopping him. "All I want to talk about is what we do now."
Her gray eyes met his and didn't waver. She was, he realized, ready for anything.
"God... you're amazing, Mary."
Her brows lifted. "Why?"
"You're handling all this shit really well. Especially the part about what I am."
She tucked a piece of hair behind her ears and studied his face. "You know something? It's not that big a surprise. Well, it is, but... I knew you were different from the moment I first saw you. I didn't know you were a... Do you call yourselves vampires?"
He nodded.
"Vampire," she said, as if trying the word out. "You haven't hurt me or scared me. Well, not really. And... you know, I've been clinically dead at least twice. Once when I went into cardiac arrest while they were giving me a bone-marrow transplant. Once when I came down with pneumonia and my lungs filled up with fluid. I, ah, I'm not sure where I went or why I came back, but there was something on the other side. Not heaven with the clouds and the angels and all that jazz. Just a white light. I didn't know what it was the first time. The second, I just went right into it. I don't know why I came back - "
She flushed and stopped talking, as if embarrassed by what she'd revealed.
"You have been to the Fade," he murmured, awed.
"The Fade?"
He nodded. "At least, that's what we call it."
She shook her head, clearly unwilling to go further with the subject. "Anyway, there's a lot we don't understand about this world. That vampires exist? It's just one more thing."
When he didn't say anything for a while, she glanced at him. "Why are you looking at me like that?"
"You are a wahlker" he said, feeling as if he should stand up and bow to her, as was custom.
"A wahlker?"
"Someone who has been to the other side and returned. Where I come from, that is a title of distinction."
A cell phone's bleating turned both of their heads. The sound was coming from inside the duffel.
"Could you hand me that bag?" he asked.
She leaned over and tried to lift it. Couldn't. "Why don't I just give you the phone?"
"No." He struggled to his knees. "Just let me - "
"Rhage, I'll get it - "
"Mary, stop," he commanded. "I don't want you going in there."
She recoiled from the thing, as if it were carrying snakes.
With a lurch he put his hand inside. As soon as he found the phone, he cocked it and put it up to his ear.
"Yeah?" he barked, while partially zipping the duffel shut.
"Are you okay?" Tohr said. "And where the hell are you?"
"I'm fine. Just not at home."
"No shit. When you didn't meet Butch down at the gym, and he couldn't find you in the main house, he got worried and called me. Do you need a pickup?"
"No. I'm cool where I am."
"And where's that?"
"I called Wrath last night and he didn't get back to me. He around?"
"He and Beth went down to his place in the city for some private time. Now where are you?" When there was no quick answer, the brother's voice dropped lower. "Rhage, what the hell's going on?"
"Just tell Wrath I'm looking for him."
Tohr cursed. "Are you sure you don't need a pickup? I can send a couple of the doggen out with a lead-lined body bag."
"Nah, I'm good." He wasn't going anywhere without Mary. "Later, man."
"Rhage - "
He hung up and the phone rang again immediately. After checking caller ID, he let Tohr go into voice mail. He was putting the thing down next to him on the floor