Love-Blocked – Charity Parkerson Page 0,18
was driving. By the time I got home, I had convinced myself that you didn’t really want to hear from me again.”
“Oh. Okay.”
Damn. Derreck didn’t know how someone could love someone as much as Derreck loved Jett and not explode. “What are you doing right now?”
“Following this guy through the grocery store, waiting to catch him lifting something heavy. You know, the usual.”
An unwanted hint of irritation rose inside Derreck. “Isn’t that dangerous?”
“Not really.” Jett sounded oddly disappointed.
Derreck didn’t feel better. “But what if he spots you following him?”
A sexy chuckle vibrated through the phone and caressed his ear. “I’ve been getting my ass kicked my whole life, Bear. At least now I’m getting paid. Plus, I’m not worried. For once in my life, I’m actually pretty good at something. I’m good at this.”
The pride in Jett’s voice made it impossible for Derreck to keep arguing. He decided to change the subject. “Kirill wanted me to let you know he has plans for us tonight.” Derreck held his breath. They hadn’t exactly talked about anything. For all Derreck knew, Jett wouldn’t see them again.
“Interesting. What does he have planned?”
Derreck released his pent breath. “I don’t know. It’s a surprise, I’m guessing.”
Jett made a humming sound that had Derreck wishing he could feel it around his cock. “No one wants to go first, so I will. What are we doing here? The three of us, I mean.” Jett’s question was like cold water thrown in Derreck’s face. He didn’t want to say the wrong thing and lose Jett again.
“I hope we’re building something.” Derreck’s tie felt too tight. He loosened it as he tried explaining his thoughts. “From the first time I saw you, I was instantly enthralled. I thought you were like this wild beauty I could never have or handle. Plus, you were dating Antonio, so I felt all sorts of wrong for wanting you so badly.” A smile tugged at Derreck’s lips as the memories washed over him. “Then, bit by bit, you felt less wrong all the time. I think... never mind.” Derreck hated himself for being weak, but he didn’t want to lose Jett again.
“Finish your thoughts.” Jett sounded breathless—like he needed to know.
Derreck took a breath. “I think maybe one of the reasons I was so scared to lose Antonio is because having you two together had always been such a huge fantasy for me. Losing him permanently to Bay meant giving up any chance of watching you the way I watched you last night.”
For a moment, silence met his confession. Finally, Jett cleared his throat. “What about Kirill? Is he just convenient?”
A snort escaped Derreck without thought. “There’s nothing convenient about Kirill. He’s my boss and I’m not sure he’s ever even particularly liked me, but... goddamn. I don’t know, angel. Something happened between the three of us last night and I can’t believe for one second I’m the only one who felt it. I didn’t plan this, nor do I think this is a great idea. But I’m in love with you. Always have been. And I think Kirill completes us in some way I can’t explain. I think we need him, and I think he needs us.”
To Derreck’s surprise, Jett didn’t balk. “I agree. You know, I should psychoanalyze you and say that you need this type of relationship because you never had a family, and the whole throuple relationship dynamic makes you feel a little more whole. I won’t do that, though.”
Derreck couldn’t stop smiling. “I’m glad you spared me the psychoanalysis. You said twice in the same sentence that this is a relationship, so I won’t point out that you need this relationship too for almost the same reason.”
“Oh, there’s no need to psychoanalyze me, Bear. I’ve had enough therapy to know myself.” Derreck heard a car door close. Jett’s voice turned sultry, as if they were alone now. “Plus, I’m not ashamed to admit that I like to watch and be watched. Not to mention, I’m in love with you. I can’t begin to tell you how it felt having you inside me and knowing you watched me suck Kirill’s dick. No one on the planet has ever set me free and made me feel as powerful as you do.” Jett took an audible breath. The hair stood on the back of Derreck’s neck. He swore he felt the power of Jett’s next words before they were spoken. “If we’re doing this, then this is it. Kirill and I