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this what you always wanted?"

"Yes," he said.

"Well, then, congratulations."

He looked back at her. The filthy evening gown hung over the screen and her shoulders were bare. "You don't sound like you mean it."

She pointed for him to turn back around. "I do. It's what you wanted. You achieved it. That's admirable in some way."

He chuckled. "In some way."

"But how will you hold the power now that you have it? That's an interesting question, I think."

"You think I'm not strong enough?" He looked back at her again and she allowed him to because she'd covered her upper body with a white blouse.

"I don't know if you're cruel enough." Her dark eyes were very clear. "And if you are, then that will be sad."

"Powerful men don't have to be cruel."

"But they usually are." Her head ducked below the screen as she stepped into her skirt. "Now that you've seen me dress and I've seen you shoot a man, can I ask you a personal question?"

"Sure."

"Who is she?"

"Who?"

Her head appeared above the screen again. "The one you love."

"Who says I'm in love with anyone?"

"I say so." She shrugged. "A woman knows these things. Is she in Florida?"

He smiled, shook his head. "She's gone."

"She left you?"

"She died."

She blinked and then stared at him to see if he was putting her on. When she realized he wasn't, she said, "I'm sorry."

He changed the subject. "Are you happy about the guns?"

She leaned her arms on the top of the screen. "Very. When the day comes to end Machado's rule - and that day will come - we will have a . . ." She snapped her fingers, looked at him. "Help me."

"An arsenal," he said.

"Arsenal, yes."

"So these aren't the only weapons."

She shook her head. "Not the first and they will not be the last. When the time comes, we will be ready." She came out from behind the screen in the standard clothes of a female cigar worker - white blouse with string tie over tan skirt. "You think what I'm doing is foolish."

"Not at all. I think it's noble. It's just not my cause."

"What is?"

"Rum."

"You do not want to be a noble person?" She held her thumb and index finger close together. "A little bit?"

He shook his head. "I've got nothing against noble people, I've just noticed they rarely live past forty."

"Neither do gangsters."

"True," he said, "but we eat in better restaurants."

From the wardrobe, she selected a pair of flats the same color as her shirt, sat on the bed to put them on.

He stayed at the window. "Let's say someday you have this revolution."

"Yes."

"Will anything change?"

"People can change." She put one shoe on.

He shook his head. "The world can change, but people, no, people stay pretty much the same. So even if you replace Machado, there's a good chance you'll replace him with a worse version. Meanwhile, you could be maimed or you could - "

"I could die." She twisted her torso to put on the other shoe. "I know how this probably ends, Joseph."

"Joe."

"Joseph," she said. "I could die because a comrade betrays me for money. I could get captured by damaged men, as damaged as the one today or even worse, and they will torture me until my body can no longer endure it. And there won't be anything noble in my death because death is never noble. You weep and beg and the shit flows out of your ass as you die. And those who kill you laugh and spit on your corpse. And I will be quickly forgotten. As if" - she snapped her fingers - "I was never here. I know all that."

"So why do it?"

She stood and smoothed the skirt. "I love my country."

"I love mine but - "

"There is no but," she said. "That's the difference between us. Your country is something you see out that window. Yes?"

He nodded. "Pretty much."

"My country is something in here." She tapped the center of her chest and then her temple. "And I know she won't thank me for my efforts. She's not going to return my love. That would be impossible, because I don't just love the people and the buildings and the smell of her. I love the idea of her. And that's something I made up, so I love what isn't there. Like you love that dead girl."

He couldn't think of anything to say to that so he just watched her cross the room and pull the dress she'd worn in the swamp off the screen. She handed