A Little Bit Dirty - Jenika Snow Page 0,20

much I have wanted you, how much I want you now.” His lips were so close to hers that if he just leaned forward the last couple of inches that separated them he’d kiss her. It had been too long, and she was so desperate for him. The music was so loud, and although she couldn’t hear the lyrics she felt the bass come through the many layers of the walls. It was the same fast and hard beat as her heart.

“No one ever compared to you, Tanner.”

She closed her eyes and breathed out this stuttering gust of air. God, she had only been this wet one other time, and that was when she had given her virginity to Jacks in a drunken night filled with more than one orgasm. Her heart was thundering, and she swore her wetness was soaking clean through her panties.

He was so much bigger than her five-foot-three, nearly a whole foot taller, and his muscles were also so pronounced. She wanted to run her hands over the tattoos that covered his flesh, new ones that he had added to his body as memories of the life he had led.

“You’ve been working out.” She had no idea why she said that, but she supposed feeling his hardness pressed against her softness had the words just spilling out. She also felt something else very hard between them and pressing right into her belly. She remembered all too well how it felt to have that long, thick length inside of her.

“God, Tanner, I want you so bad.” His voice was so harsh.

She wanted to tell him that she wanted him, too, and that she just wanted to pretend that the years hadn’t passed by, but the words lodged in her throat.

“I need you, Tanner. Christ.” And then he had his mouth on hers and his tongue speared between her lips. She wasn’t kissing a rock star, or one of the most wanted men in the world. No, she was kissing Jacks, the boy she had always been in love with. He slid his hands down her shoulders, over her arms, and gripped her waist tightly. And then he was walking them backward until she felt the cold, hard wall greet her back.

He hadn’t broken the kiss, and the deep rumbles that left him had her inner muscles clenching almost painfully. He opened his mouth wider and deepened the kiss, and then moved his hands to the edge of her shirt and started to slowly lift it up.

“Please, Tanner. Please tell me you want this, too.” He sounded pained as he murmured against her mouth, but also frantic with his need. He was grinding his erection into her belly, and a gasp left her as she let her head fall back against the wall.

Tanner didn’t answer, just placed her hands on his pecs and gently pushed him away. He took a stumbled step back, his head downcast and his eyes trained right on her. He was breathing so hard, like he had just run a marathon. They weren’t teenagers anymore, and this wasn’t a drunken night for her to lose her virginity.

She loved him, had always loved him, but having sex with him again after reuniting surely wasn’t the smartest move. How could she compete with what he had experienced in life? Jacks was this megastar, had had countless women—starlets, movie stars, and supermodels under him, screaming out his name as he fucked them, and having perfect bodies.

It was easy to say that didn’t matter to him, but how could she not think of this stuff when it was right in front of her?

Aside from the physical part they hadn’t really talked, and jumping into sex seemed like glossing things over. God, why was she worrying about this stuff when Jacks Lorde was right in front of her, clearly wanting her and what they had shared years ago?

For several seconds they stood there, just staring at each other. He looked the same, yet he didn’t. Tanner licked her lips and knew she didn’t want to postpone this, but at the same time she wanted to go slow. But even though she knew this might be another bad idea, it was something she wasn’t going to stop, no, couldn’t, not when she couldn’t breathe and her body felt like it was on fire.

“I want you, Tanner,” he gritted out. “I want this.”

They stood there several more seconds, neither speaking, but the sexual chemistry and electricity bounced between them. “I want