perhaps start doubting the other White. They would reason that if a little disobedience now and then was reasonable for a White, it must be reasonable for Circlians, too.
But there’s no need for the people to know of my disobedience, she thought. Only the White and the gods will know. I have considered how I would feel if I obeyed them. What if I disobeyed them?
There would be guilt, she knew. There would also be relief. She would respect herself for standing up for what she thought was right even as she disliked herself for failing to obey the gods. Yet it was better to feel disappointment in herself than in the gods.
I don’t expect the gods to hold a public trial, just let Mirar leave Northern Ithania. If he comes back… well, I will deal with him. If they punish me, so be it.
She felt a little better at that thought. Is this my decision? she asked herself. Am I prepared to accept any punishment?
What punishment would they choose? She didn’t believe they would kill her, as Mirar feared. They would not take away her position as White, either. That would shock the people as badly as if they executed her. No, every time she considered the worst punishment they could deal out she came up with only one: removing her ability to fly.
Just contemplating the possibility made her feel like her heart was being torn into pieces.
If they do, you‘d better appreciate my sacrifice, Mirar, she thought. You had better get yourself out of Northern Ithania and never return, because if you come back I will kill you.
She closed her eyes and sighed. I think that means I’ve made up my mind. What next? Should I call Chaia and—
Her thoughts were interrupted by two Siyee landing several steps away. They hurried toward her, both radiating urgency and fear.
“Auraya of the White,” the taller said, making the sign of the circle.
“What is it? What has happened?”
“A Pentadrian ship was sighted off the coast a few days ago,” he said. “Within sight of the Sand tribe village.”
“Did they land?”
“No. A ship was seen to the east a few days before that.”
“Another ship, or the same one?”
“We don’t know.”
She rose. “I will fly south and investigate.”
“Thank you,” the taller Siyee said.
As they walked away toward the center of the village she hurried to the bower. Tyve nodded and smiled wryly as she told him she was leaving, wondering if he would ever learn what was going on between her and Wilar. Turning away quickly, she stepped outside.
As she propelled herself into the sky she felt a rush of sadness. This might be my last flight. I had better enjoy it while I can. Then she laughed aloud. If Mirar’s right, and the gods decide to kill me, removing my Gifts while I’m in the air would certainly do the trick.
Imi had come up onto the deck when the first island had been sighted and remained at the rail despite the rain. So far all that the ship had passed were small outcrops of rock barely large enough to call islands. Now there were larger shapes ahead, familiar to her from the paintings in the palace.
“Stony Island,” she said to herself as they passed an island bare of vegetation. In the distance was a low, shapely island covered in trees. “Maiden Island.”
She heard footsteps behind her and turned to see Imenja and Reivan approaching. They joined her at the rail.
“Is this your home, Imi?” Imenja asked.
Imi nodded. “Yes.” As the ship sailed farther past Stony Island it entered a ring of islands. “This is Borra.”
“Is there anything left of the old settlements on the islands?” Reivan asked.
Imi shrugged. “I don’t know. We haven’t been able to live outside the city for a long time. Some people tried to, but the raiders killed them.” She smiled. “But the raiders have never been able to settle either, because we burn their houses.”
“Did your people build defenses around your settlements?”
“Defenses?”
“Walls. Perhaps something on the beach to stop boats landing.”
“I don’t know.” Imi smiled. “That sounds like something you should tell my father about. Maybe if we could defend ourselves we would then find a way to get rid of the raiders.”
To her surprise, Reivan shook her head. “So long as there is trade between Northern and Southern Ithania there will be thieves in these waters. The wind blows in favor of ships sailing past these islands but there are no major ports along the Si