“Kids?”
“I can’t even take care of my yard,” I reminded him.
He smiled The Smile and I immediately decided I’d like three kids a whole lot.
“How are things?” Dad asked Lee.
Lee glanced at Dad, took his arm from my chair then studied the menu.
“Depends. Some are great, some not so good.”
Dad nodded, apparently happy with that answer or at least understanding it. I sat there thinking a lot more was said than what was actually said. Men had a mysterious way of communicating.
We ate, we chased after children who wanted to visit other diners’ tables, we talked, we laughed and after awhile, I began to relax. Life had been so weird lately, I didn’t even realize how tense it was making me. I didn’t realize how much I needed a night like tonight.
I poured honey on my crust and watched Tex who seemed not like a man who had barricaded himself on his block for two decades but like someone relaxed and who fit in with my family and friends.
Then again, you bought yourself some serious loyalty by saving a daughter/sister/girlfriend from being held hostage and getting shot for your troubles.
I ate my honeyed crust and my eyes moved to Lee who was listening to Dolores. His thigh was pressed against mine under the table and twice he had handed me the honey without me having to ask for it. The Savages and the Nightingales had been to Beau Jo’s dozens of times either in Denver for whatever occasion or Idaho Springs after a day of skiing.
Lee knew when I wanted the honey.
Yikes.
How did this happen?
There was no denying we were actually together, not test driving it. We’d blown right passed the “getting to know you” phase of the relationship because we didn’t need it. We were smack dab into the comfortable part of a relationship, the part that held shared intimacy because of history.
Even so, we still had the thrill of the newness about our situation, discovering hidden things about each other like him having a housekeeper, keeping good java in the kitchen, being incredibly moody, kissing really, really well and having a na**d body that was a gift from the gods.
At these thoughts, inexplicably, panic overwhelmed me.
Sensing it because he was a freak of nature, Lee’s head immediately turned to me.
“What’s the matter?” he asked.
Self-preservation kicked in over the panic and I lied.
“Nothing.”
He turned fully to me and his arm went around the back of my chair again, his other forearm resting on the table, fencing me in.
“What’s the matter?” he repeated.
“Nothing!”
He watched me for a couple of beats and then he said calmly, “We’re gonna have to work at kickin’ your lying habit.”
“I’m not lying,” I lied.
He leaned in. “What we have here is good and if you’d get over your thoughts that it isn’t gonna last, you’d realize how much better it’s gonna get if you’d just relax.”
See! He totally knows me. It was beginning to be scary.
Since lying wasn’t going to work, I changed strategies and went for annoyance.
“Get out of my brain, it’s pissing me off,” I warned him.