And again.
“Baby,” I whispered to the ceiling, the tears streaming out the sides of my eyes, down my temples, drenching my hair, “come back to me. Find some way to come back to me. I swear, swear, swear, if you come back to me, I won’t ever vex you again. Never again. I won’t be overly friendly to people who are common and I won’t save half-dead birds and I won’t sneak apples to Salem in the stables… or to all the horses in the stables though I don’t think you knew I did that… and I won’t rumple children’s hair. I’ll be the perfect princess. I’ll be your perfect princess. I’ll live every second doing everything I can to make you feel nothing but happiness, to make you want to do nothing but smile your beautiful, beautiful smile. I swear. I swear,” I forced through my blocked throat. “Just come back… honey, come back and crash into me.”
My throat clogged, there came a loud banging at my door and I jumped.
Jeez, that couldn’t have been an hour.
Heaving a sigh, I rolled off the couch, moved to the door and looked out the peephole.
Oh my God!
My heart flew into my throat, I unlocked the door, threw it open and flung myself in Tor’s arms.
“Baby,” I whispered, my arms around his shoulders, my face in his neck, my body pressing into his as I felt his hands, his big, strong fingers close around my hips. “Honey, oh God, I missed you. God, baby,” I moaned in his throat.
“Cora?” his beautiful voice sounded, I pulled my face from his neck, moved my hands to either side of his head and then pulled him to me, pressing my mouth to his, I slid my tongue inside and I kissed him. Burrowing deep into his body, holding onto his head tight, I kissed him with everything I had.
His arms closed around me, he shuffled me into the apartment while still kissing me and I vaguely felt and heard him close the door with his foot.
I slid my hands to his neck and pulled away, looking into his gorgeous, light blue eyes.
“Let’s go to bed. Right now. Hurry, I need you, honey. Like our first time, just like then, I need you now,” I whispered frantically, wanting him, needing to be connected to him, as close as I could get. I was moving backwards, trying to take him with me but his body locked and he held firm.
Then he spoke.
“Jesus, babe, what’s got into you? Two weeks ago you blow me off and now you’re all over me. What the f**k?”
I yanked out of his arms, took two steps back, my eyes scanning his face.
No scar.
Not Tor.
Noc.
I closed my eyes and dropped my head so my face was in my hands.
Not Tor.
Noc.
Bloody hell! I was going to start crying again.
I was right. I started crying again. The tears came back, the pain came back and my shoulders started heaving, wracked with my sobs.
“Cora, f**kin’ hell, what –?” Noc asked softly, his arms sliding around me but I tore away from him, moving quickly back two more steps, lifting a hand.
“Stay away from me!” I yelled and his face switched instantly from concern to anger.
“What’s with the multiple personalities, babe?” he asked, crossing his arms on his chest.
I stared at him. God, except for the scar and the words he used, he was the same. The absolute same. Every inch of him, down to his voice.
Pain sliced anew, shredding me inside. I couldn’t take it, I couldn’t endure him being there.
“Get out,” I whispered.
“See, that’s not gonna happen,” he told me, dropped his arms, took a step toward me, I took a step back and he stopped and put his hands to his hips. “You got somethin’ to tell me?” he asked.