“You didn’t have to do that,” I shot back but did it still whispering.
“I disagree,” he replied.
“Explain, exactly, how that was okay.”
“This was Arizona, you’d be deep in my life. You know the shit I care about, the people that mean something to me, you’d do what you can to make certain I didn’t get taken away from any of it. That’s how it’s okay. You had a partner, his wife and kids are still a part of your life. You get me,” he told me.
“I have your back. You have my word on that so you don’t need that shit.”
“Now I have your back for more than the fact I don’t wanna see anything happen to you but it’s deeper. Way f**kin’ deeper and you know exactly how. They’d suffer and they’d suffer huge if you weren’t there in the morning. So, shit goes down, no matter what it is, I’ll bust my ass to make sure you’re there in the morning.”
Fuck.
Fuck!
He made sense. It was Asshole Invasive Sense (yes, meriting capital letters) but it was still sense.
Jesus.
I put the bottle cap edge to the counter, slammed the butt of my palm on it and the cap went flying. I ignored it and threw back a hefty pull.
When I dropped my hand, I knew he knew he’d won because he asked, “Anything on Nick?”
I gave in by answering, “Nothing except I’m shocked to find Nick Sebring is boring.” I rounded the bar, putting needed space between Creed and me. “His brother could be sitting and writing a letter and he’d be fascinating to watch. Nick. No. He’s got a desk job, works it, went home, made dinner, put on the game. That’s it.”
“So I take it tomorrow you’re switchin’ to Nair,” he surmised.
“Fuck yeah,” I confirmed, my eyes to a pile of folders on the edge of the counter that I not only didn’t put there, I had no idea what they were.
He saw what I was looking at and I knew this when he invited, “That’s everything I got on Nick, Nair and this investigation. Take it, read it, I’ll cook. When I’m done, I’ll bring you your food, we’ll eat and while we do, I’ll answer any questions you have.”
I looked up at him and said quietly, “You’re not staying here.”
“I’m not leaving,” he said quietly back.
We locked eyes.
I tried again. “There’s no reason for you to stay here.”
“Way you tell it,” he fired back instantly, “no reason for me to go either.”
Fuck.
Fuck!
I had to get back on my game. He was screwing me at every turn.
I broke eye contact, sucked back more beer, grabbed the folders and stalked through the kitchen to the back.
My house was shit. The bathroom suite was pink, put in during what I was guessing was the ‘50’s and the tub and basin had rust stains. The carpet was shag. There was wood paneling from the ‘70’s in every room and my kitchen appliances were all avocado.
I didn’t care. I made decent money but in my job, early retirement was necessary. You couldn’t carry on doing what I did for eternity. You had a brain in your head, you quit doing it before the age of fifty hit your life’s horizon. So I lived small but still content and socked back everything I could. The house was sturdy. It had personality that was mostly my mess, my cat and me, I spent very little time there and thus it worked.
It was the back room that sold me on the place.
It wasn’t a walled in patio. It also wasn’t not one. It had big windows so it seemed outside even though it was inside. Narrow, it had concrete floors I’d strewn with thick, bright, braided rugs. There was an old, slouchy, comfortable as all f**k couch that had tons of big, slouchy pillows on it. Two wicker chairs angled across from it, more slouchy pillows on those. A big upright chest at the wall to the side of the door from the kitchen that had everything you needed in it, corkscrew, bottle opener, lighters, cigs, extra ashtrays, condoms, the shelves covered with green, trailing, brightly potted plants that even I couldn’t manage to kill and I forgot to water them frequently.
I loved it back there. If I was home, I was back there. I even had two space heaters back there so when it was winter, I could still be there.