Knocking Boots - Willow Winters Page 0,34

Right fucking now.

My body heats as I type in the message.

Missing you, sweetheart. I’m getting off work and wondering where you are.

I regret sending it pretty much as soon as it goes on the screen. It’s not like she’s obligated to be here. I let out a heavy sigh, hating that all of this feels so suffocating. It’s been five years since I… I don’t even know what I’m doing. Asking her on a date, I guess. A real one, not just to be my fake date for a wedding.

Sorry Charlie, I went home tonight.

A frown tips my lips down, and that sick feeling comes back to me. I clear my throat and type back without thinking.

I was hoping I’d see you. Now I don’t have a dinner date. :( Again, I immediately regret my decision. A sad face? Really? Throwing my head back I grip my phone like I want to strangle it. What is it with this woman?

A dinner date? Or a fake dinner date?

I thought the food would be real… I’m playful in my text back, trying to keep the conversation lighthearted.

You make me smile. I can see her doing just that. Smiling as she reads the message.

Good, you should be smiling. You’re too sweet not to be smiling.

It feels easy flirting with Grace. It always has. My chest feels light as I wait for her response.

I’m sorry. Not tonight.

Another date? I question. I don’t think she’d be one to do that. She’d tell me. But I ask her without thinking. I need to quit it with that.

Nope. Just a lot of work to catch up on and I’m exhausted.

I think about asking her if she’s seeing anyone, and making this thing between us official. But then I remember all the stories she’s told me about her dates and looking for a man to settle down with. Clingy. I’m not ready for all that. I could at least ask her out to dinner though. Just to tell her thank you for putting up with my sister. Maybe sneak in another kiss.

Another night? I ask her.

She takes a minute to respond, and all the while I’m getting more and more anxious. Maybe I should take the hint, but I don’t want to. I at least want to feed her.

Sure. I’d like that.

I’m smiling and thinking about going home when her next text catches me off guard.

What are we doing, Charlie?

What do you mean? I text her back almost instantly.

Fuck, even before she answers I know what’s coming. Grabbing the closest chair and ignoring Mag’s stare, I take a seat and stare at the phone, willing her to respond. I lean forward, my elbows on my knees and wait, rereading her question. What are we doing?

I knew my sister got to her. Why the hell did she have to come in here and mess up what I had going with Grace? Everything was easy, just going with the flow and taking it slow. Making sure I’m not going to hurt her.

We’re just having fun.

I text her back before she can answer, my heart pounding in my chest. I lean back in my seat, the legs screeching as they slide across the floor and run my hand through my hair.

I feel like I’m in a little over my head. I stare at her response for a moment. That sick feeling was right. I knew it. She’s not happy anymore just playing around. I don’t blame her. She knows what she wants, and me fucking around with her is just causing problems for her.

What do you mean? I ask her, as my stomach sinks. I rub my eyes, feeling exhausted and hating myself. What did I really expect from her anyway? I huff out a breath and shake my head as my phone beeps and her reply comes through.

I’m not really sure what it means to just have fun with someone. It seems like I’m going to end up getting hurt and I’m not sure it’s a smart thing for me to do. I’m sorry.

I feel like shit, looking fixedly at the phone in my hand. Brushing my hand over my head out of frustration, I look up and see James at the bar, staring at me as he fills a glass with ice. I nearly snap at him, feeling stressed out and pissed off, but he breaks my stare and looks away as soon as he sees me glaring back.

I suck it up and text Grace back. I knew this