Kace (Shattered Souls MC #3) - Heather Dahlgren Page 0,59

me I need to trust that they know what they are doing. I’m trying to believe that, but it’s hard. The thought that they could be out there hurt, or dead is what kept me up most of the night.

As much as I want to stay and find out what the fuck is going on, I can’t. I need to shower and get ready for my doctor appointment. I really was hoping that Kace would go with me, but I guess doing things alone is something I’m just going to have to accept. He’ll always have something more important for the club that needs attention. The realization hurts, but I made a promise to myself that I would stop focusing on the negative. I know Kace cares for me and I know in my heart that he will do whatever is necessary to protect me.

I get undressed as the shower heats up. Once the water is running over me, I start to relax just a little. I think back to the other night when Kace and I had sex. He took control making sure my focus was on him and not the chaos in my mind. It was hot and worked well. I wish he was here to stop the chaos now.

I step out of the shower and dry off. After putting on my black panties and bra, I step into my jeans and off the shoulder black shirt. I’ll admit as I blow dry my hair, I feel a bit of excitement about going to the doctor today. I didn’t tell Kace but when I made the appointment they told me I’d be getting an ultrasound. I’ll be able to see the baby for the first time. I wanted to surprise him if he came with me, but I’ll have to surprise him later when I get back. I’m hoping it will be the start of the good things happening.

Once my hair is dry, I pull it up into a high ponytail. The highlights I had done in California are fading a bit, but I’ll touch them up soon. I focus on putting some light makeup on. Just a bit of mascara and lip gloss. I stand back to look at myself and smile. I might have the weight of the world on my shoulders, but you’d never know looking at me.

I grab my purse and phone, checking to make sure I didn’t miss a call or text from Kace. Seeing I haven’t, I shove it in my purse. I make my way from the back and the noise of all the people is overwhelming. I’m used to my quiet mornings, relaxing with a cup of coffee. That’s far from what will be happening here, but I need the coffee.

“Look who’s finally awake,” Harper says, wrapping her slender arm around my shoulder.

I glance at her, rolling my eyes. “I hardly slept. Have you heard anything?”

“No, but that’s probably good news. Don’t worry.”

Don’t worry. Like she can just say the words and I’ll suddenly stop. I don’t say that though, I just nod and look around. “Any coffee?”

“Yeah, sit down and I’ll have them bring some over.”

I notice an empty table and sit down, resting my chin on my hands. Enzo’s wife Nora, Brooks’ new girlfriend Maren, and Zane’s mom Adalyn sit down with me.

“How are you feeling?” Adalyn asks. Her warm eyes touch mine as she gives me a small smile.

“I’m starting to feel better. The morning sickness seems to be letting up,” I say, folding my hands on the table.

“I was so sick with Zane for the first few weeks. It took all my might just to get out of bed every day.” She looks off in the distance and I see the worry flash across her face. “He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me,” she whispers.

Nora squeezes her hand, giving her a reassuring smile. “You’ll tell him that again for the millionth time shortly,” she says.

“How’s Brooks?” I ask Maren.

“I spoke with him earlier and he’s on some good pain medicine. We’re going to head up to the hospital shortly. He’ll be having surgery in a few hours.”

I nod as I bite my lip. I’m not exactly sure what to talk about. I want to ask them how they’ve handled this all these years. I want to ask how they had the motivation to get up and do their hair and makeup to perfection. I want to ask if they worry the way I am.