The Initial Insult - Mindy McGinnis Page 0,29
something that works; Mom always gets what she wants.
If I can catch them at a bad moment my own news might slip past, as they both try really, really hard to act like everything is okay. That’s something that we’re all good at. I flip back the lock and am about to jerk open the door, when I stop in my tracks, catching the last few words out of Dad’s mouth.
“—goddamn birthday party! There’s no reason why they can’t spend the night!”
“Really? Really?” Mom asks, dragging out the second one, like maybe Dad made a mistake by saying what he did. By the look on his face, he might be thinking the same thing. “Because we all know what happened last time our daughter had a sleepover.”
Yeah, we do. Us and the whole town. In my hand, my phone buzzes again. My fingers are sweaty, smearing the name on the screen: Tress Montor.
The last time our daughter had a sleepover. I touch my fingers to the side of my lip, where the scar still lingers, even though Mom has told me twice there’s a doctor who can make it like it never happened.
I already feel like a lot of things never happened, like the big chunk of time I can’t remember from that night at Tress’s. But I remember what came before, super well. Mom and Dad had been fighting out on the back deck, just like this. Outside, where they thought I couldn’t hear. But I am small and quiet, and I’d sat halfway up the steps, listening.
“If she wants to go to the Montors’ there’s no reason why not,” Dad said.
“No reason?” Mom shot back, her voice angrier than his, and louder. “It only has to happen once, Brandon, just once. One seizure and everybody knows that the Turnados have something in their blood, and who will marry her then?”
I squirmed on the stairs then, thinking about the fact that my dad had a real name, more than the idea of getting married.
“Married?” Dad’s voice rose to match Mom’s then, cracking. “Jesus Christ, she’s in sixth grade, April! And this isn’t the seventeenth century.”
“No,” Mom said. “But it’s Amontillado. You didn’t grow up here. You don’t know. People still talk about the Evans boy marrying that Troyer girl out of the kindness of his heart, knowing full well insanity runs in their family.”
“You sure it’s not the only one?” Dad bellowed, and then there was a smacking sound that made me jump, the hem of my nightgown fluttering with the movement. Mom had come around the corner, shaking her hand, freezing when she spotted me on the steps.
“What did you hear?” she asked, but all I could do was shake my head.
Like I did when I came home from school to find her on the floor, a froth around her lips. Like I did when I caught her taking my seizure medication, her mouth a tight line around the pill. Like I did when she told me, for the thousandth time, “Never let anyone know there is something wrong with you.”
I have become very good at pretending there is nothing wrong. So good that now, as I slide open the screen door, I put on the face I’ve been practicing. Mom’s face. Blankness, waiting for the other person’s reaction.
“Tress RSVP’d,” I say. “She’ll be here tomorrow for the party.”
“Okay,” Mom says in her fake, cheery voice, the one she practices as much I do the face. The door is almost latched again when Mom stops it with her foot. “Wait. Who?”
“Tress,” I say, keeping my voice light and airy, like hers. You can get away with a lot if you keep a polite tone. I’ve learned that from watching Mom. She bartered down the salesman at the car lot last week to a price that had actually made Dad hug her. We drove off the lot together, Mom looking in the rearview mirror at the salesman with a smile.
“He has no idea what hit him,” she said, then told me to set the air however I wanted it because we had dual climate control now. And heated seats. The clothes I was wearing still smell like a new car, leather and plastic and steel, shiny and bright. Clean. New. A lot of my stuff is new these days.
“Tress,” I repeat. “Remember her?”
Mom’s blank face folds a bit, into a scowl, and I know I messed up. I messed up because I sounded like Dad. And—like Mom said that