How to Repair a Mechanical Heart - By J. C. Lillis Page 0,74
believe it too. I yank the phone out of my pocket and answer fast, in the dark. If I’d checked the screen first, I would’ve seen the warning.
HOME CALLING.
“Brandon?”
Damn.
“Uh. Hey!” I force a smile into my voice. “Everything’s great. Can I call you back?”
“No, actually,” Dad says.
“Brandon,” says Mom, in the same tone she used when I was twelve and she found the Tiger Beat stash in my closet. “Is there something you’d like to tell us?”
Chapter Twenty-Seven
“I would like to know,” my father says, “why your mother had to find out in an email from Mary Beth Heffler that you were driving across the country with a boy we clearly do not trust.”
“What?”
“Facebook doesn’t lie, Brandon. Mary Beth’s daughter posted on Bec’s wall. Something about—you have it, Kathy.”
“’Lucky you…cross country with two hot guys! Too bad they’re both gay, lol.’”
Oh God.
I make an I’m dead sign to Bec, finger slashing throat. She cringes and makes a Should I stay? motion; my hands tell her My demise needs no witnesses. She slips away but I see her stay close, just behind a Ponderosa pine a little way back down the path.
“You lied to us,” Dad says. “True or false?”
“True,” I whisper. I rest my forehead on the cottonwood I’d just attacked.
“Tell us it’s Abel, at least. Not someone worse.”
“It’s him. Or, it was. He—” My eyes fill up. “He left.”
Dad makes a disbelieving ugh sound. “You’re coming home, in case you’re wondering,” he says. “Right now.”
“What—why?”
“Why?”
“There’s one more convention.”
“You should have thought about that before you spent five weeks lying to your parents.”
“I’m not in high school anymore,” I say. “It’s my life.”
“Well, it’s my RV, kiddo,” Dad says calmly. “And I want you to return it immediately. Where are you right now?”
I dig my fingernails into the bark. “Far away. Nebraska.”
“All right. Fine. I want you back here tomorrow night. On Friday you can help with setup for the Funfair at St. Matt’s and then you and your mother and I will have a long talk.”
“I don’t want to talk.”
“Honey. Come on,” soothes Mom.
“I’m not coming home yet!”
“Ah, okay. I see.” Dad’s voice goes low and taut, like it always did when he’d lecture Nat. “So this is what the Life of Brandon’s all about now. No, I get it. Real cool. You walk away from church, you lie to your parents—”
“Yeah, well, why do you think I lied? What if I told you Abel was coming? There’s no way you’d have said yes.”
“You’re damn right!”
“We’re just concerned, sweetie,” says Mom.
“You’re just backwards, is what you are,” I shoot back.
We all plunge into silence. The woods around me feel dark and cold and endless. I think of the old Family Game Nights in the St. Matt’s parish hall, when Dad would school everyone in Jeopardy and Mom was reigning Pictionary Queen with a 7-layer taco dip everyone wanted the recipe for. Nat would roll her eyes when they put their goofy plastic trophies on the mantel but I thought it was great, having parents who were champions and knew just about everything.
“Do you think I want to be this way, Brandon?” Dad sighs. “I mean, look: I wish to God I could say ‘Suuure, go ahead. Whatever you want, kiddo! Dessert for dinner! Blow off that homework! Loosey-goosey, whatever feels good…’”
Mom giggles lamely. “Loosey-goosey?”
“The point is,” he huffs, “I’m on your side. Very much so. I want you to be happy. I want to see you fall in love, get married—”
“I can still do that.”
“But the fact is, you’re never, ever going to be at peace. Not like this.”
I just blink.
“Greg…” my mother whispers.
“It’s true. You won’t, because your mom and I raised you to know what’s right, and you’re always going to know deep down that this isn’t what God wants for you. That even if he quote-unquote ‘made’ you a certain way, you separated yourself from him with your choices. And if I didn’t keep pointing that out to you, if I didn’t give my only son every chance to fix his relationship with God—” His voice wavers. He pauses, pulls in an even breath. “—then what kind of dad would I be?”
The kind of dad I need. If hey_mamacita was real and I was in her fic, I’d say it clear and brave. I’d tell him I respected his opinion, but it wasn’t mine, not anymore. I’d tell him that my beautiful boyfriend was probably still at the bus station, and if I drove fast enough