How to Repair a Mechanical Heart - By J. C. Lillis Page 0,33
fair. It’s pretty much like every other church fair I’ve been to. The basketball toss has the same sad shredded net, kids shriek in a red and blue bouncy castle and chuck dented ping-pong balls at goldfish bowls, and the snack stands sell sausages and roasted corncobs and cones of hot popcorn in that radioactive yellow. Everything’s familiar. Except now I’m here with a boy.
It’s weird. No one’s giving us a second glance now, but it would be so easy to attract bad attention. All I’d have to do is slip my hand in Abel’s and walk around like that, like all the other teenage couples linking arms and holding hands and kissing in line for the dunking booth. I can see the expressions now. Guys who look like my dad, chewing their tongues and hunching their shoulders up. Women who look like my mom, sighing a little and glancing away but thinking so loud I can hear every word.
And they would be right.
“What’s up, Tin Man?” Abel pokes me.
“Hm?”
“You all right? Your bolts too tight?”
“I’m fine.”
This shivery energy thrums between us. I tell myself it’s sugar and caffeine. Keep my arms folded in front of me.
We try a few rounds at the ring-toss stand and Abel just misses our shot to win a giant stuffed penguin with a half-unraveled scarf. To make up for it, he runs over to a stand and buys me a puff of blue cotton candy. Like we’re dating or something. I can’t look him in the eye when he hands me the white paper cone, so I glance past the rides and snack stands to where the blond stone wall of the church is, but I can’t let my eyes linger there either. It’s like looking at a house you don’t live in anymore. You wish you could go in again, but strangers live there now and you aren’t welcome, and it wouldn’t be the same anyway.
“So what were we talking about?” says Abel. “Back in the cab?”
I tug off a small neat piece of cotton candy, the color of Sim’s hair. “If they were on Earth. Their jobs.”
“Right, right.” Abel helps himself to a big bite of fluff; a fleck of it melts on his nose. “Sim would make a perfect priest.”
“Nooo. No no no. Absolutely not.”
“How come? The self-denial thing would be cake.”
“I don’t see him like that.”
“So what do you see?”
“Cadmus. As a bartender.”
“Pardon me.”
“Mmm, like some super-cheesy creeper from the seventies. He’d unbutton his shirt and make—you know. What’s like, an old drink no one drinks anymore?”
“Harvey Wallbangers.”
“You made that up.”
“I did not. You need to come to my theme parties.”
“No thanks.”
“Why not?”
“I don’t want to wake up in your bathtub with my eyebrow shaved off.”
“That only happened once, and Alex deserved it.”
We stop in front of the Tilt-a-Whirl. A light summer breeze unsettles our t-shirts and lifts all the hair on my arms. The cotton candy’s left this cute little blue spot on his nose. I can’t help myself. I lick the tip of my index finger and rub at it: gently, like he’ll crumble if I touch him too hard.
He giggles. “What’re you doing, freako?”
“Sorry, it’s driving me nuts.”
Be careful, says Father Mike.
Abel catches my hand and twirls me around. “Let’s get on.”
“What?”
“The Tilt-a-Whirl.”
“Nah.”
“Why?” He cocks his head at me. “You’re not scared, are you?”
“No! No, I love rides,” I lie. “It’s just—I just ate, you know?”
“Oh, come on. Pretend it’s the Starsetter. We can write our very own horrible Cadsim fic.” He’s edging us close to the Tilt-a-Whirl line. “I’m a rogue captain on the run…I steal a starship and kidnap you, the hot navigation android programmed to do the right thing…or are you?” Couples step up on the creaky platform, settle into identical half-shell cars. “How should our fic start? We get stuck in an elevator—”
“No no. We meet in your bar,” I break in, ducking away from the line. “It’s an alternate-universe earthfic.”
“Bold choice,” Abel follows me, grinning. “Okay. You be Cadmus.”
“Noooo.”
“Why not? Stretch yourself.”
“No way.”
“Okay, fine.” Abel slips on his Cadmus shades and makes wiping motions above a picnic table. “Hey there, customer. What can I pour you this fine evening?”
“Oh, ah, I am unsure.” My ears get hot. Why did I start this? “I am an android, and as such I have no need to imbibe.”
“So how come you’re at my bar?”
“I cannot say. Perhaps a malfunction in my compass application.”
Abel narrows his eyes, like Cadmus does when he’s negotiating with Xaarg. “I