found a wolf that is willing mate with me. I couldn’t be more excited. I had thought this day would never come, but this is a small sacrifice to pay for the reward I will reap. The curse we have been working to fulfill these long centuries will come to fruition in twenty-one short years.
The wolf is handsome, in that rugged way. His face is clean-shaven, unlike the others. His hair is a lighter brown then my own. His boyish charm adds to the youthfulness of his face. Goddess help me, he has dimples. I feel like a school girl once again, looking into those shining blue eyes. He is a wolf though. If I was taught anything, it’s that wolves are beneath us. Slaves to our desires and our will.
His name is Dominic. I refuse to fall in love with this man. I’m no fool. I know how the mate-bond works. I am witch, after all. In the end, he’ll only leave me. It saddens me that I’ll have to kill him once I am impregnated. It is for the best though. I can’t have him coming after the child once it is born. I must cultivate its mind so that it would know its place in the world. Under my command, and above all else, in favor of the witches and warlocks.
Next, I will force this mating.
The bus jostled and rattled me out of the pages of her diary. I needed a small break from her words.
I looked outside the window. It was funny how different the weather was only a few states over. It had been a rough couple of days in Montana. I had been living on the bus. I didn’t know any packs out this way. I figured I would be safe in this area. Next I would be to find a job and lay low. I knew that I would have to try to find a job that would be willing to pay under the table, which meant it would be a minimum wage job, if that. I would have to start building a new life for myself.
I turned my attention back to the pages of the dairy. I was filled with disgust but I couldn’t put it down. This, as much as I hated it, was part of my past. I had to know it. I have to undo the damage my mother has caused in whatever way I can.
I fear that I might have fallen in love with Dominic. He has a strange sense of humor, but his love for me is never ending. I try to remind myself that I am using him, that eventually he would find his mate and he leave me. I knew these things yet … I have fallen for him. He has shown me the love that was absent all my life. My mother has always told me that our cause was more important than anything. That it is bigger than her, bigger than me. She tried to find out the secret that would fulfill the ritual. But the Emery line kept it secret for such a long time. It makes no matter, now we know. It’s a pity that my mother had complications after my birth. She told me it was common in our family. Something magically happens that dries us up after our first child. It was our curse.
I don’t know why, but this has always been the case since the original curse. I think the Goddess is punishing us. But none of that matters anymore. I want Dominic. I wanted the life with him that he painted for us.
I will give up on the curse in order to have a life with him.
I am pregnant. I am thrilled to tell Dominic, I hope he is as excited as I am. This is a joyous day. This child of mine will know love and happiness. Nic and I will provide the best that we can for our baby girl. I know she is a girl. I cannot wait to see my little Aradia for the first time.
Dominic has betrayed me. Granted I lied to him from day one. I told him my name was Colette, and I even told him I was a light witch. I trusted him and he betrayed me. He broken into my diary and knows everything now. I have to remind myself of his betrayal, every moment. He is threatening to leave. I am in my last trimester now. How