rail. I threw myself backward and felt the anchor lift just as the wolf launched himself. He shot toward the rail. I dropped to the deck, dragging the anchor higher.
A strong wind whipped around from the south—a magical wind. The sails billowed, the boat lurched from the dock, and the wolf’s leap fell short. His front paws hooked the railing, but only for a second before the weight of his falling body sent him plummeting into the dark water below. I hauled the anchor over the side, then looked into the swirling dark water below.
“Hope you can swim, ya scurvy cur!” I shouted down at him.
Kristof laughed behind me. I waved at the wolf as he surfaced.
“Do you believe that?” I said. “He double-crossed us.”
“Damned clever…for a werewolf.” I eased back against the railing. “So do you need to navigate this thing or what?”
“I’ve set her on a course for Roatan. My wind spell won’t last long, but we’ll get there.”
“No rush. We can’t visit Luther Ross until morning. We should probably keep watch for a few minutes, though, make sure we aren’t followed.”
“I’ll cover that, if you don’t mind covering us with a fog spell.”
I cast the sorcerer spell. Fog billowed up around the boat, and we sailed out to sea.
Edinburgh / 1962
THE NIX SAT ON A BARSTOOL, STARING AT THE BOTTLE of Scotch. Close enough to touch—to drink. In the old days, she’d never have considered such a thing. But now she was reduced to this, staring at a bottle of alcohol, imagining the burn of it down her throat, the pleasant numbing amnesia that followed.
She’d been inside plenty of partners with memories they’d wanted to forget, and most had indulged in alcohol to do it. She’d always despised them for such weakness. She’d suffered through the effects, with gritted teeth, hating every moment that her thoughts were dulled. And now she could think of nothing better than to partake of that same temporary oblivion.
She concentrated and reached for the bottle. Her fingers passed through the glass, through the amber liquid, leaving not so much as a drop of it on her skin. Once she’d have roared in frustration, cursed every demon she could name for not freeing her from this spirit prison. Now she only moaned and sank into her seat.
She hadn’t fed properly since Dachev had left her. Oh, she’d taken partners, dined on her share of chaos, but it hadn’t been the same. She’d come halfway around the world in search of something better, and hadn’t found it. Every new partner was but a wretched substitute for him.
There would never be another like Andrei Dachev. A true partner of the soul. Though only a supernatural shade—and from an inferior race, at that—he’d understood the power of death and chaos the way only a demon usually could. More than that, he’d appreciated the craft of chaos more than most demons, and he’d opened her mind to possibilities she’d never considered, to the true beauty of physical and mental suffering.
He’d been content to watch, but they’d always talked of finding a way, not only to bring him inside her partners, but to impose their will on those partners, to force them to carry out Dachev’s visionary ideas. Had they accomplished that, the Nix knew she would have felt an emotion she’d never experienced: happiness. The happiness of complete satisfaction.
If only she hadn’t betrayed him.
She betrayed all her partners eventually, for that final satisfaction of seeing them fall. She’d told herself that was the reason she’d turned on Dachev, because she was so accustomed to doing so that she had acted without thinking. The truth was far more unforgivable. She had betrayed Dachev because she’d tasted another emotion she’d never encountered before: fear.
While she’d been inside a partner, an angel had come for Dachev—the same one who’d taken her soul from the Marquise’s body and transported her to hell. She’d recognized him, but when Dachev saw the angel, dressed in contemporary clothing, acting human, he’d mistaken him for a corporeal being. She could have warned him. All she had to do was jump out of her partner. But to do so would have meant exposing herself. Fear had paralyzed her, and she’d left Dachev to his fate.
She’d had time to repent her cowardice. Fifteen years of finding only serviceable partners, nothing like Agnes or Jolynn or Lizzie, and certainly nothing like Andrei Dachev.