passed two vacant ones before reaching an occupant, a man in his late twenties, head bent, face hidden as he prayed. The words tumbled forth, barely coherent, voice raw as if he’d been praying for days, and no longer expected a response, but wasn’t ready to give up hope, praying like he had so much to say and so little time to say it in.
“Death row,” I murmured.
Trsiel nodded and stopped before the man’s cell. He went very still, then shook his head sharply and moved on. “We need someone to test this on. Someone who’s guilty.”
“Guilt—you mean he’s innocent?”
My gaze slid back to the praying inmate. I’d never been what you call a religious person. I’ve even been known to be somewhat disparaging of faith, and those who throw themselves into it. Too many people spend their lives focused on insuring a good place in their next one, instead of embracing the one they have. That smacks of laziness. If your life sucks, you fix it, you don’t fall on your knees and pray for someone to make it better the next time.
But here, watching this man pray so hard, with so much passion, desperation, and blind hope, I couldn’t help feeling a twinge of indignation.
“Isn’t this what you guys are supposed to do?” I called after Trsiel. “Right wrongs? See justice done?”
He slowed, but didn’t turn.
“This justice belongs to the living,” he said softly. “We can only right it after they’ve exacted it. He’ll see his freedom soon enough, on the other side.”
Trsiel moved between two cells. There was a man in each, one about fifty, but looking twenty years older, shoulders stooped, hair gray, skin hanging off his frame as if he’d lost a lot of weight, fast. The other man was maybe thirty, hunched over a pad of paper, writing as furiously as the first man had been praying.
Trsiel considered them both, then nodded at the writer. “He’ll do. I’ll be acting as a conduit. Through me, you’ll see what I see, by tapping into a higher level of Aspicio sight powers. Give me your hand.”
I reached out and grasped his fingers.
“I’m not sure whether this will work, or how well,” he said. “So be patient…and be ready.” He turned his gaze on the man. “Now…”
A wave of emotion hit me, so strong it was like a physical blow. I fought to free myself, but the undertow sucked me into a roiling whirlpool, then spit me out into a nursery. A giant’s nursery, with soaring walls, stuffed bears the size of grizzlies, and a rocking chair so high I could barely have climbed into it. Across the room, a huge woman stood beside a crib.
“Momma!”
The shrill plea screeched from my throat. It wasn’t my voice, but that of a child, a preschooler’s, still at the age where it’s difficult to tell boy from girl.
“Momma!”
“Shhh,” the woman said softly, smiling over her shoulder at me. “Let me feed the baby. Then I’ll read to you.”
“No! Read now!”
She waved me off and leaned over the crib.
“No, Momma! Me. Me, me, me!”
The baby screamed. I screamed louder, but he drowned me out. I gnashed my teeth and howled, stamped my feet and roared. Still she heard only him. Saw only him. Always him. Hated him. Hated, hated, hated! Wanted to pick him up and smash him, smash him like a doll, smash him until he broke and—
The nursery vanished.
A cat yowled, the sound piercing to the core of my brain. I laughed. A boy’s laugh now, nearing puberty. Buildings loomed on either side, pitching day into night. An alley. I stalked along it, chuckling to myself. The cat yowled again, a shriek of terror, like a baby’s…like a woman’s. The cat had reached the end of the alley and was trying to climb the wall, claws scrabbling against the brick. The stink of charred fur filled the narrow alley. The cat’s tail was burned to the bone, but it no longer seemed to feel the pain, no longer cared, only wanted to escape, to survive. It screamed again. I closed my eyes, and absorbed the scream. My groin tingled. A new sensation, strange but not unpleasant. Definitely not unpleasant.
I looked at the cat. Then I flicked open the switchblade. The cat continued to screech, darting back and forth along the bottom of the wall. It saw the knife, but it didn’t react, didn’t know what the knife meant. As I took a slow step toward the cat, I thought