triggered it. Maybe it was the rum. Maybe it was just that the more determined I am to keep painful events at bay, the more likely I am to focus on the little things, minutiae, a casually dropped word or phrase that rings in my head and won't stop. Whatever the case, tonight in the playground, I'd found a truth and a lie. Both at the same time.
Broussard had been right: nothing worked.
And I had been right: facades, no matter how well built, usually come down.
Angie rolled onto her back and let out a soft moan, kicked at the sheet tangled up by her feet. It must have been that effort-trying to kick with a leg encased in plaster-that woke her. She blinked and raised her head, looked down at the cast, then turned her head and saw me.
"Hey. What're..." She sat up, smacked her lips, pushed hair out of her eyes. "What're you doing?"
"Sitting here," I said. "Thinking."
"You drunk?"
I held up my coffee cup. "Not so's you'd notice."
"Then come to bed." She extended her hand.
"Broussard lied to us."
She pulled the hand away, used it to push herself farther up the headboard. "What?"
"Last year," I said. "When Ray Likanski bolted the bar and disappeared."
"What about it?"
"Broussard said he barely knew the man. Said he was one of Poole's occasional snitches."
"Yeah. So?"
"Tonight, with half a pint of rum in him, he told me Ray was his own snitch."
She reached over to the nightstand, turned on the light. "What?"
I nodded.
"So...so maybe he just made an oversight last year. Maybe we heard him wrong."
I looked at her.
Eventually she held up a hand as she turned toward the nightstand for her cigarettes. "You're right. We never hear things wrong."
"Not at the same time."
She lit a cigarette and pulled the sheet up her leg, scratched at her knee just above the cast. "Why would he lie?"
I shrugged. "I've been sitting here wondering the same thing."
"Maybe he had a reason to protect Ray's identity as his snitch."
I sipped some coffee. "Possibly, but it seems awful convenient, doesn't it? Ray is potentially a key witness in the disappearance of Amanda McCready; Broussard lies about knowing him. Seems..."
"Shady."
I nodded. "A bit. Another thing?"
"What?"
"Broussard's retiring soon."
"How soon?"
"Not sure. Sounded like very soon. He said he was closing in on his twenty, and as soon as he reached it he was turning in his shield."
She took a drag off her cigarette, peered over the bright coal at me. "So he's retiring. So what?"
"Last year, just before we climbed up to the quarry, you made a joke to him."
She touched her chest. "I did."
"Si. You said something like 'Maybe it's time we retired.'"
Her eyes brightened. "I said, 'Maybe it's time we hung 'em up.'"
"And he said?"
She leaned forward, elbows on her knees, and thought about it. "He said..." She jabbed the air with her cigarette several times. "He said he couldn't afford to retire. He said something about medical bills."
"His wife's, wasn't it?"
She nodded. "She'd been in a car accident just before they were married. She wasn't insured. He owed the hospital big."
"So what happened to those medical bills? You think the hospital just said, 'Ah, you're a nice guy. Forget about it'?"
"Doubtful."
"In the extreme. So a cop who was poor lies about knowing a key player in the McCready case, and six months later the cop's got enough money to retire-not on the kind of money a cop gets after thirty years in, but somehow on the kind a cop gets after twenty."
She chewed her lower lip for a minute. "Toss me a T-shirt, will you?"
I opened my dresser, took a dark green Saw Doctors shirt from the drawer, and handed it to her. She pulled it over her head and kicked away the sheets, looked around the room for her crutches. She looked over at me, saw that I was chuckling under my breath.
"What?"
"You look pretty funny."
Her face darkened. "How's that?"
"Sitting there in my T-shirt with a big white cast on your leg." I shrugged. "Just looks funny is all."
"Ha," she said. "Ha-ha. Where are my crutches?"
"Behind the door."
"Would you be so kind?"
I brought them to her and she struggled onto them, and then I followed her down the dark hall into the kitchen. The digital display on the microwave read 4:04, and I could feel it in my joints and the back of my neck, but not in my mind. When Broussard had mentioned Ray Likanski on the playground, something had snapped to attention in my brain, started