Gateway - Frederik Pohl Page 0,42

air, talking to a girl, and I saw with astonishment that the girl was Willa Forehand. She greeted us, looking both embarrassed and amused.

"What's going on?" I demanded. "Didn't you just ship out — like maybe eight hours ago?"

"Ten," she said.

"Did something go wrong with the ship, so you had to come back?" Klara guessed.

Willa smiled ruefully. "Not a thing. I've been there and back. Shortest trip on record so far: I went to the Moon."

"Earth's moon?"

"That's the one." She seemed to be controlling herself, to keep from laughter. Or tears.

Shicky said consolingly, "They'll surely give you a bonus, Willa. There was one that went to Ganymede once, and the Corporation divvied up half a million dollars among them."

She shook her head. "Even I know better than that, Shicky, dear. Oh, they'll award us something. But it won't be enough to make a difference. We need more than that." That was the unusual, and somewhat surprising, thing about the Forehands: it was always "we." They were clearly a very closely knit family, even if they didn't like to discuss that fact with outsiders.

I touched her, a pat between affection and compassion. "What are you going to do?"

She looked at me with surprise. "Why, I've already signed up for another launch, day after tomorrow."

"Well!" said Klara. "We've got to have two parties at once for you! We'd better get busy…" And hours later, just before we went to sleep that night, she said to me, "Wasn't there something you wanted to say to me before we saw Willa?"

"I forget," I said sleepily. I hadn't forgotten. I knew what it was. But I didn't want to say it anymore.

There were days when I worked myself up almost to that point of asking Klara to ship out with me again. And there were days when a ship came in with a couple of starved, dehydrated survivors, or with no survivors, or when at the routine time a batch of last year's launches were posted as nonreturns. On those days I worked myself up almost to the point of quitting Gateway completely.

Most days we simply spent deferring decision. It wasn't all that hard. It was a pretty pleasant way to live, exploring Gateway and each other. Klara took on a maid, a stocky, fair young woman from the food mines of Carmarthen named Hywa. Except that the feedstock for the Welsh single-cell protein factories was coal instead of oil shale, her world had been almost exactly like mine. Her way out of it had not been a lottery ticket but two years as crew on a commercial spaceship. She couldn't even go back home. She had jumped ship on Gateway, forfeiting her bond of money she couldn't pay. And she couldn't prospect, either, because her one launch had left her with a heart arhythmia that sometimes looked like it was getting better and sometimes put her in Terminal Hospital for a week at a time. Hywa's job was partly to cook and clean for Klara and me, partly to baby-sit the little girl, Kathy Francis, when her father was on duty and Klara didn't want to be bothered. Klara had been losing pretty heavily at the casino, so she really couldn't afford Hywa, but then she couldn't afford me, either.

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What made it easy to turn off our insights was that we pretended to each other, and sometimes to ourselves, that what we were doing was preparing ourselves, really well, for the day when the Right trip came along.

It wasn't hard to do that. A lot of real prospectors did the same thing, between trips. There was a group that called itself the Heechee Seekers, which met on Wednesday nights; it had been started by a prospector named Sam Kahane, kept up by others while he was off on a trip that hadn't worked out, and now had Sam back in it between trips, while he was waiting for the other two members of his crew to get back in shape for the next one. (Among other things, they had come back with scurvy, due to