Corey’s hands cupped the sides of my face as he leaned in. “You already have me, Danielle. No one else has ever meant anything to me and you baby…you mean everything.”
The time for talking was over—our lips collided again and we slowly moved over to the bed. We ravaged one another exploring every inch that we both missed during our time apart. My body arched against every touch while my lips took advantage of the closeness of our bodies. Corey teased my needy core and when I thought I could take no more, he slid deep inside me. There really was nothing as right as the feel of him a part of me, with the world around us as nothing but a faint background. Corey took his time making this the most memorable and meaningful experience we’ve shared. When we could no longer hold off, we spiraled over the moon together until our bodies were spent and breathless. For the first time in weeks, I didn’t cry myself to sleep as I moved as close to Corey as I could possibly get. Letting his arms keep me safe from the dangers of the thoughts swirling around in my scarred mind.
Forever the End
The urge to vomit made me shoot out of bed. I made it to the toilet with half a second to spare; my body expelled the gallons of tequila I consumed that night. When my stomach was done purging itself, I leaned against the bathtub and let the memories from last night swirl through my mind. The jealous rage that turned me into a crazy person, fighting with Corey, and finally, making love with him. Most importantly—I told Corey I loved him. Even though I was drunk, I knew I meant every single word that I said but what I didn’t say was it didn’t change anything. I would still be returning to the city and I did not intend to come back.
When I was sure I wasn’t going to throw up again, I splashed water on my face and rinsed out my mouth the best I could. The room was still dark and the red digital numbers on the clock display read 4:03 in the morning. Corey was still sleeping peacefully and I wanted nothing more than to crawl back into bed with him. But I knew I couldn’t do that anymore. My decision was final and now I needed to get away before I lost any sort of self-control.
While pulling my dress back into place I saw the pad of paper provided by the Inn, sitting on the round table in the corner. This was going to be the last contact I would give myself with Corey, so I had to make it good.
Corey—
I know this doesn’t make sense and I wouldn’t blame you if you hated me after all was said and done, but I need you to know, that I’m sorry. When I got in my car and made the long drive here, I dreaded every minute of it. This place was never one I intended to stay in. In the beginning I wanted nothing more than a distraction during my time here. Meeting you flipped my world upside down and now the thought of letting you go is the only thing I’m dreading. I really do love you, Corey. I’ve loved you since the moment you showed up at my house and drove me to see my mother. You’re the most incredible, selfless, amazing person I have ever met. I am really going to miss you, but this is for the best. I’ll never be what you need me to be and I will never deserve what you have to offer. I won’t be coming back to work at the Inn, and don’t know if I’ll ever be able to return to this place after I leave. But I’ll never forget you Corey. Never.
Love you always… Dani 25
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Snow fluttered down from the gloomy gray clouds, matching my mood to a Tee. From the second I got in my car and drove home this morning—I was a complete disaster. My stomach churned from the tequila, my head pounded from the hangover and my heart—well my heart was nothing but a shattered wreck. I spent the day curled up in sweats on the couch the TV droned on in the background. My phone was on the coffee table near my head but it hadn’t received a single call or