‘That’s not the sort of abuse I meant,’ Leon says. ‘I meant emotional.’
‘Oh.’ Was that what it was, with Justin?
Yes, I think immediately, before I have time to second guess myself. Of course it bloody was. Lucie and Mo and Gerty have all been saying as much without saying it for months, haven’t they? I swallow a gulp of tea, hiding behind my mug.
‘It was hard to watch,’ Leon says, staring down at his tea. ‘She’s on the mend now. Lots of counselling. Good friends. Getting to the root of the problem.’
‘Mmm. I’m trying that . . . counselling thing, too.’
He nods. ‘That’s good. That’ll help.’
‘It is already, I think. It was Mo’s idea, and he’s literally always right about things.’
I could do with one of Mo’s audio hugs right now, actually. As I look around for my phone, Leon points to where it lies on the bedside table.
‘I’ll give you a minute. And don’t worry about Holly’s birthday. Bet it’s probably the last thing you . . .’
He trails off at my outraged expression.
‘You think I’m missing Holly’s birthday because of last night?’
‘Well, I just thought it must’ve taken it out of you, and . . .’
I’m shaking my head. ‘Absolutely not. The last thing I want to do is let this . . . Justin stuff get in the way of the important things.’
He smiles, his eyes lingering on my face. ‘Well, OK. Thanks.’
‘We need to leave early enough to buy a present!’ I call after him as he leaves.
‘I gave her the gift of good health!’ he calls back through the door.
‘That won’t cut it – it needs to be something from Claire’s Accessories!’
50
Leon
Holly’s mum’s home is a poky, crumbling town house in Southwark. Paint peels everywhere and pictures lean on walls, unhung, but it feels friendly. Just a little tired.
Streams of children are darting in and out of the front door when we arrive. Feel slightly overwhelmed. I’m still processing last night, still buzzing with adrenaline from the altercation with Justin. We reported the incident to the police, but I want to do more. She should get a restraining order. Can’t suggest it, though. Her choice. I’m helpless.
We step inside the house. There are many party hats and a few crying babies, possibly baited into tears by boisterous eight-year-olds.
Me: Can you see Holly?
Tiffy stands on one tiptoe (her good foot).
Tiffy: Is that her? In the Star Wars outfit?
Me: Star Trek. And no. Maybe over there by the kitchen?
Tiffy: Pretty sure that’s a boy. Did you tell me this was fancy dress?
Me: You read the invite too!
Tiffy ignores this, picks up abandoned cowboy hat and plants it on my head.
I turn to the hall mirror to admire the effect. The hat perches on top of my hair precariously. Pull it off and put it on Tiffy instead. Much better. A sort of sexy cowgirl thing. Very clichéd, of course, but sexy nonetheless.
Tiffy checks her reflection and yanks the hat down further.
Tiffy: Fine. You’re a wizard then.
She pulls a moon-covered cape off the back of a chair and reaches up to drape it over my shoulders, fixing it with a bow at my throat. Just the feel of her fingers makes me think of last night. It’s a highly inappropriate location for these sorts of thoughts, so I try to ward them off, but she is not helping. She trails her hands down my chest in a gesture familiar from time on sofa.
Grab her hand.
Me: Can’t be doing that.
Tiffy quirks an eyebrow, mischievous.
Tiffy: Doing what?
At least if she’s planning on torturing me in this fashion it must mean she’s feeling a little better.
*
Eventually locate Holly sitting on stairs and realise why she was so hard to spot. She looks completely transformed. Bright eyes. Hair thicker and healthier, falling forward to be blown back impatiently as she talks. She’s actually looking a little chubby.
Holly: LEON!
She skids downstairs then stops short at bottom. She’s dressed as Elsa from Frozen, much like every girl hosting a birthday party in the Western hemisphere since 2013. She’s a little old for it, but then, she missed out on most of her time being little, so.
Holly: Where’s Tiffy?
Me: She’s here too. She’s just gone to the bathroom.
Holly looks placated. Links her arm through mine and drags me off to the living room to try and feed me small sausage rolls that have been fingered by many unclean children.