But he didn’t. He rammed into her, ripped her flesh, tore something deep inside she wasn’t sure what to name. Her soul?
No. My soul is mine. It cannot be torn. Not by you.
You’re stronger than you think you are.
She dared to crack her eyes ever so slightly and shock flooded her when her eyes met those of the kid, slumped over on a red chaise lounge, his face turned directly toward her. His eyes were glassy, unfocused, mouth slack, but his gaze was unblinking as he watched her be degraded.
OhGod,ohGod,ohGod. Her shame spiraled. He always kicks up such a fuss over that ugly little thing being taken away, Ms. Wykes had said. Georgia? It had to be her she was referencing. Was it just about protecting Georgia or were they also grooming him for their religious group? Had he resisted?
He finished with a loud grunt and Kandace squeezed her eyes shut and then forced her facial muscles to relax. As he pulled away, he slapped her one more time and called her filthy, his voice full of disgust. Then he cleaned her quickly—sparing no gentleness—and pulled her underwear up and nightgown down.
He picked her up again and made the journey back to her room where he deposited her in her bed, the door to the room clicking closed behind him.
In the dark, she heard Aurora’s and Sydney’s quiet snores. Kandace turned toward the wall. It didn’t matter what that man had done. The last time she’d had sex, it was because she’d wanted some weed. She’d endured three minutes of sweaty screwing, rolled her eyes as he climbed off, and then happily smoked the drugs he’d offered. Yes, what had occurred tonight wasn’t anything she hadn’t allowed to happen to her dozens of times. It wasn’t anything she hadn’t given permission for more often than she could count.
So why am I crying?
Tears coursed down her cheeks and for a moment, Kandace gave in to the silent sobs that shook her shoulders.
Yes, now she knew. Even if she still had no proof.
Her hand moved slowly to her stomach, acknowledging that which she hadn’t had the courage to acknowledge yet. The tracks of her tears dried, breath becoming even. Her palm moved over the very small bump, the rounding that would only be obvious to her because she knew her own body.
A realization came to her and her eyes opened, staring up at the shadowy beams of the attic ceiling.
She did have proof.
She had the child in her womb.
And now she knew. . . it belonged to one of them.
CHAPTER THIRTY
“My girls,” her mother said, flinging the door open wide and pulling Scarlett and Haddie into a joint embrace. Scarlett dropped her duffel bag on the floor, one arm around her mother, the other around her little girl, breathing in the comfort of her mother’s smell: rose-scented lotion and clean laundry.
“Hi, Mom,” she said, smiling when her mother finally let her go, stepping back and closing the door.
Her mother knelt down, bringing her hands to Haddie’s face. “How’s my grandbaby?” she asked.
Haddie smiled. “Good, Gram.”
She kissed Haddie’s cheek. “Come on into the kitchen,” she said, standing. “I made some coffee cake and apple muffins. And I got you a new coloring book, miss,” she said to Haddie.
Haddie grinned, taking her gram’s hand as they went into the kitchen. Her mother’s house was small and somewhat dated, but it was spic and span and had the warm feel of home.
“Where’s Gerald?” she asked. Gerald was her stepfather, the man her mother had married ten years before. Although Scarlett had been eighteen when her mother married him and therefore Scarlett had never had a real fatherly relationship with him, he was a kind and decent man. Scarlett was happy her mother had found a companion not only to spend her golden years with but to relieve the financial burden she’d carried on her own since Scarlett’s father had died.
“He picked up an extra shift.”
“He’s a hard worker.” Scarlett squeezed her mother’s shoulder as her mother sat down, and then Scarlett took a seat next to her. Haddie had already climbed into a chair and was taking the brand-new crayons out of the package, coloring book spread out in front of her.
“Unicorns,” Haddie said happily, pointing to the book. “They’re magic.”
Scarlett smiled, brushing her daughter’s hair out of her face. “I see, baby.” Sometimes, so rarely, she was nothing but the purest vision of a seven-year-old child and it made Scarlett’s