I figured it was the antidepressants but at times, I just felt like sleeping all day, that part I really hated. Gran had been watching me as usual. I knew she saw I was having trouble. She saw me make excuses to go to my room when my energy level just bottomed out. I hid the fact I had been having migraines to go with the tiredness. I didn’t want to deal with more doctors so I suffered in silence.
The one bright spot in my days had been that I had started riding my horse Wind Song again. My doctor even said that riding was therapeutic for me. I had given up riding, after the attack. Up until that night I rode every day, and even competed at two or three horse shows a month. I began to really enjoy my time alone with my horse just riding, and looking at the fall leaves. I roamed all over our property blocking out all my problems. I would let my mind just wander. I let myself escape reality for a few hours every day.
I went riding as often as I could. The weather had been nice but was getting colder more each day as fall was ending. I dreaded when it started to snow. I would not get to go riding as much. I especially liked escaping Sara. She had been on my case to go out more and go back for my sophomore year in college. I had thought about it and was just about ready to do that, but not because she was pushing it.
Kara and Beth, my two very best friends, were coming over that evening. We planned on watching some scary movies and eating junk food. It would be like the typical girls night, like we use to have before I lost my mind. I missed silly things, like talking about who was dating whom and what was in style. My world now was too dramatic, and heavy. I longed to be carefree again and not so weighed down.
They got to my house on time. We had the house to ourselves tonight for a little while anyway. Dad was in Chicago with Sara for some benefit dinner. Gran was at bingo at the senior center. We made popcorn and chocolate chip cookies shortly after they arrived. They filled me in on all the latest gossip from school and told me what they had been up to.
“I could explode,” Kara, sighed we all groaned in agreement. “I haven’t eaten like that in months.” I put my head on the couch as Beth flipped her long braids back and got up to turn off the movie. I had always envied her. She had the most lovely mocha skin and super long legs unlike me. Kara was as fair skinned as I was but had short red hair that spiraled into curls. She also had a sprinkle of freckles, which she hated, but we all thought were cute.
The three of us had been inseparable since first grade. We had been through every teen crisis together from zit’s to periods and bad break ups. They had been by my side through all of my recent problems too or nightmares, however you want to put it. Many of my other friends couldn’t understand what I had just gone through with Todd, but Kara and Beth did. They had both stayed by my side, even at my craziest points.
I was enjoying myself now, a rare occasion for me these days. It was nice to just have girl time: no drama, no tension. Kara got a wicked smile on her face as she put the DVD back in the case after we watched it.
“So have you met your new neighbors Corrine?” She winks at Beth. I knew they were up to something. They were always up to something they thought was good for me. Kara grinned as she looked at Beth.
“Yeah, have you seen them or should I say him?” She chuckled as she popped some chips into her mouth. I had to hide my inner flinch at the word him. Really, I didn’t care who my new neighbors were and I especially didn’t care if it was some guy.
“I saw the him, he looks our age.” gushed Kara. “He is like way hot. He has that spiky Edward Cullen hair thing going on.” She motions around her head. “You know…Edward Cullen…Twilight…duh!”
“Who doesn’t know about Twilight Kara…seriously?” Beth laughs. “I’m so team Jacob though!”