“You want me to do performative hugging on a regular basis?” Judd tried to relieve the tension. Clearly Colin had been working up to this for hours.
“No. I mean, yes. I mean, kinda?” Colin let out a sigh. “I want you to teach me.”
“What exactly? You’re way better educated than I am. There’s not a subject in the world that I know better than you.” Judd wanted everything clear. Because he wanted everything.
“Oh, nothing academic. Although I bet you know more about modern history post-Saturation than most historians.”
“Firsthand accounts are unreliable. You know that.”
Colin pressed his hands together, uncomfortable. “We’re getting off topic and this is challenging enough as it is without you bringing history into it. Look, please. I want you to show me how to… you know… do sex.”
“What?” Judd felt his brain kind of stretch and snap back with the shock of such a brazen request. How brave was Colin? And how much had he underestimated his Gingersnap?
“Like have it, firsthand experience-wise.”
Judd took a deep breath, treading carefully, cautious. Proud as he was of Colin’s bravery, Judd’s whole heart was in this. Colin’s timid offer was close to tormenting him with possibilities. He had to be certain. “Flattered as I am, if you can’t talk about sex, then you shouldn’t be having any.”
Colin narrowed his eyes, straightened his shoulders, and firmed his pert little chin. “I would like you to take me upstairs, regularly, and for a while, until you think I’m at least qualified to pass a 101 level class on the subject of getting freaky. We could use either your room or mine, but probably yours, because I suspect you’re better equipped. Although I do have some toys and lube. I’m not a compete ignoramus. And in that room, whichever it is, I want you to screw my brains out, in all the ways and in all manners possible. Because I suspect you’d be really good at it, and I could learn all the things you like, and I like, and how to please a lover. Then I wouldn’t be so scared to date. And I would try to make it as good for you as possible, so it wouldn’t be a hardship.”
Judd sat there, gobsmacked and ridiculously proud – mulling over every word, trying to decide what to do.
The feet under his leg started wiggling again, this time in discomfort.
Judd almost jumped forward to tackle Colin. Press him down into the couch. This beautiful boy who was offering Judd everything all at once, when Judd had thought it was a dumb, impossible wish. Colin offered it as if Judd would be doing him a favor. As if this wasn’t Judd’s dream. As if sexing Colin up was some terrible obligation when it would be Judd’s greatest privilege and joy.
Judd tried to make a joke of it. “Until you’re tired of me?”
Colin shook his head, all sweet earnestness. “Oh, I don’t think that’s possible. Only until you’re tired of me, or you think I’ve learned all of it.”
“All of it, really?”
Colin clearly thought Judd was still pressing him to talk about sex openly. His full lips tensed and then he said, voice steady and confident. “Yes, all of it. Hand jobs, blow jobs, ass play, rimming, fucking, toys, and maybe some Dom sub games like rope or a blindfold. I don’t think I’m into pain, but I want to try everything, and I trust you, so will you?”
Judd had never thought he’d hear the word trust come out of Colin’s mouth. He said the only thing he could, because this small act of requesting had taken all of Colin’s courage. “Of course I will. And you can stop it, anytime for any reason.”
Judd knew he was agreeing to something transient. But if he said no merely because of the limited time frame, it would hurt Colin terribly. Plus, what would stop Colin from asking someone else? Finding another teacher. No one else would take as good care of him. No one else would induct him properly into the wide joyous world of pleasure. Certainly no one else would be as kind. Judd would give Colin everything he asked for and anything he needed. At cost to himself. Because Judd wanted every small scrap of Colin that he could get. Even if it was only to be used as a seed for self-actualization. Surely, he could be happy having Colin until someone more age-appropriate came along.