In for a penny, in for a pound. “Well, there’s more.”
She let out a genuine laugh. “Well, by all means, don’t stop now.”
“Graduation night was a first for me too, Fiona,” I confessed as well.
She was so shocked I had to reach out and grab her before she slid off the bed. I planted her firmly back in place and finally let out the laughter bubbling inside me at her expression.
“You, you…you…” she shook herself out of her stupor. “You were a virgin that night too?”
“Yep.”
“No way! No fucking way, Damien,” she denied. “You were Damien Sebastian Greystone, the most perfectly hot guy in the entire school. There’s no way cheerleaders and other girls with pulses weren’t throwing themselves at you all day.”
“Every girl but the one I wanted,” I confirmed.
“You…you were waiting for me?”
I let out a sigh because she still wasn’t getting it. “It was always going to be you, Fiona. There was no way I wasn’t going to experience that with anyone other than you. I don’t think you truly get just how fucked-up in the head I was and still am over you.”
“The heartbreak I experienced that night was almost unbearable, Damien. It took me years to get over it. It’s like I was waiting and waiting for you to come back and make it right, but you never did. I finally had to move on and try with someone else,” she brokenly whispered.
“I wish I could tell you I’m sorry and mean it, but I can’t. Fiona that night with you is the single most important night of my life,” I told her, willing her to believe it. “It’s the best of all my life’s experiences and I will not lie to you and tell you if I could go back I’d do that night differently, because I wouldn’t. I’d still manipulate you into giving me your virginity and I’d still slam my cock into you like I did without any fanfare.” Her eyes were so full of disbelief. “Did you know I took a condom with me that night?”
She shook her head. “No.”
“I did. Even though I knew what I was going to do, I still wanted to protect you and take care of you while doing it, but my need for you that night was so unbalanced, I’d forgotten to put it on. I almost went crazy knowing I was leaving for Yale and that you’d be left behind, that I finally got the bright idea to put a PI on you. I don’t think I could have left if I hadn’t.”
“You know this is all so…unreal, right?”
I nodded. “Yeah, I know. And I also know none of what I just told you makes up for how I treated you and the point of telling you wasn’t to do that. I told you all this so that you’ll understand why I plan on having a talk with your father.”
“Wait, what?”
“Fiona, I wouldn’t stand by and let a random stranger hit a woman in front of me, you think I’m going to just let the fact that your father struck you go?” I snorted at her naivety. “You’re out of your mind if you think I’d let anyone put their hands on you and not do anything about it. No one hits you. Ever. Your father is not excluded from that.”
Her strike was deadly, but she was entitled to it. “So, only you’re allowed to hurt me?”
I reached for her and, grabbing her by her hips, straddled her over my lap. I wrapped my arms around her back, keeping her anchored upright. She immediately put her arms around my neck and held on. She also never averted her gaze. That was one thing she never faltered at. No matter how mean I was to her, she always looked me in the eye as she took my abuse. Fiona was a lot stronger than she gave herself credit for. “Yes, only me, Halloween,” I confirmed, although my plans were to never do anything to ever hurt her again, if I could help it.
She didn’t say anything at first. She just kept looking at me like she could see inside my soul and couldn’t decide if I was worth saving or not. “Why?”
“Because as we move forward there are going to be times where I’m working late and forget our anniversary.” Her face paled at my words, but I kept going. “There are going to be times where