I glance away, feeling emotional at his sweet words when I still feel the guilt of what happened to Twyla in my gut. “And the healing?” I turn back to face him. “What came after the sessions?”
Reading off the paper, he translated, “Well, since she was going through the process of becoming a member, it was explained to Twyla that we have strict rules at our establishment. The Doms at my club are all highly trained in the devices and equipment we have in our playrooms. In order for a Dom to even be allowed into one of the different themed rooms is if he has been certified in all the things that room has to offer. We have security and documentation in place to ensure a Dom who isn’t trained in, say, a flogger, will never be allowed in the playroom that holds that specific device. This keeps the submissives from being hurt by someone who doesn’t know what they’re doing. Twyla was also told our playrooms do not have locking doors. There are curtains that can be closed for privacy, but even so, there are also security cameras inside each room. We take every precaution to make sure Club Alias is a safe place for people to explore their alternative lifestyle, without having to worry about a wolf in their midst.”
My eyes widen. “So hold up.” I lift a hand, fingers pointing upward. “You’re saying people can watch on the other side of the security camera what I’d be doing inside a playroom? I don’t know if I’d be okay with that.”
He smirks at me, and it goes straight to my pussy. “As your brother-in-law so eloquently put it when your sister questioned the same thing, this is where you could apply a ‘special treatment card.’ Call it a perk of being the owner’s woman. Twyla, Vi, Clarice and you, if you were to join, are the only submissives who have the option that if you don’t want anyone watching what we do behind the closed curtain, my partners will respect your wishes.”
I’m already nodding frantically before he even finishes the sentence. “That’s a solid red light from me.”
His face softens, as he must see something in my expression that tells him the reason I don’t want to be on video. Or maybe he just recalls the night before last and what it was like for me during a sexual encounter. “Stepping out of my therapist role and speaking personally, goddess—I, for one, want you all to myself and would prefer to keep our scenes private. But for the sake of being a good Dom whose job it is not to withhold anything that may bring you pleasure, you should know that another good thing about having such a strict membership process is we’ve established an incredible group of likeminded people with a passion for the BDSM lifestyle. They see nothing but beauty in the scenes, the bodies and actions like living art. So if you ever wanted to allow voyeurs to observe, it’s an option I’d be willing to discuss in the future.”
And with that, I realize Neil truly is like the Dominant heroes in my books. He’s so observant, aware of everything I could possibly need or want before I even think of it myself. In fact, he might be even better than the heroes in my books, at least the ones I’ve read, because who better to be a Dom than a sex therapist who can read his submissive like an open book. He’s trained and practiced for this his entire life. There’s no one more perfect, more qualified in the entire world, and for some reason, he’s in love with me.
The steel cage around my heart suddenly springs open like a jack in the box, catapulting my heart back into its rightful position, leaving behind that old promise to myself to never fall in love again.
“And to answer your question, Seth and Twyla worked together as Dom and sub to create a scene to act out at the club in a private playroom that helped heal and replace what happened during her trauma,” he finishes, slipping the papers back into his leather folio and setting it aside.
I feel a small smile tug at my lips. “Hm.” My eyes lift to his, suddenly feeling a little lighter. “Guess I was on to something in the shower, huh, Viking?”
His eyes flash and his nostrils flare, and after he sets his notepad and pen on top of