Demand - Lisa Renee Jones Page 0,47
one of your choosing soon.”
“No, thank you,” I say as we walk toward the black Jag. “I don’t want to drive on roads the size of sidewalks, in a car worth more than some people make in a year.”
“If you scrape it up, we’ll fix it,” he says, dismissing my concern.
“Jags are not meant to be scraped up and fixed. And I know these cars are your pride and joy.”
He opens the passenger door for me. “I couldn’t give a flying fuck about these cars. They’re metal. They’re replaceable. And they are not you. I’ll put a driver on call for you until you change your mind.” He opens the passenger door for me. “Then you can come and go as you please without the confines of what’s walkable. Let me put your coat in the trunk.” He takes it from me, already clicking the key chain and moving away.
But I’m not thinking about the coat. I’m not thinking about cars. My mind flickers with a memory, and I flatten my hand on the roof of the car. I know why I’d been tied to that bed for two hours, why I’d been punished, and it shakes me to the core. I’d gone shopping without permission. Who was I then? Why would I allow anyone to treat me like that?
“What are my boundaries?” I call out to Kayden, not even sure where the word boundaries comes from.
He returns and steps in front of me. “In bed or out, sweetheart?”
“Kayden. I’m serious.”
“As am I. In bed, you always have the ultimate power, no matter how much I seem to claim for myself. Out of bed, safety dictates everything.”
“Can I really come and go as I please? Because it didn’t seem like it today.”
“Today was complicated, and in hindsight, I handled it like shit and I’m sorry.”
The apology, spoken by a man I do not think apologizes to anyone, surprises me in all of the right ways.
“In explanation, not defense,” he continues, “Gallo talking trash about me to you fucked with my head. And I don’t let much fuck with my head. You are not a prisoner, nor have you ever been. You are not my captive, nor do I want you to be. But protecting you isn’t just a desire. If you’re to be here with me, it’s a need. I need you safe.” He closes the small space between us and lifts my hand from on top of the car, revealing the bracelet, but he doesn’t look at it. He looks at me, holding my stare, and letting me see the truth in his words. “This sends a powerful message to anyone who is, or who would be, my enemy. It says if they so much as look at you wrong, I will kill them. It says that you are mine, and even Niccolo will think twice before he touches The Hawk’s woman.”
“Your woman,” I repeat, heat radiating up my arm from where he holds me. “Is that what I am?”
“Not until you say you are. Not until you wear the bracelet by choice, not public need. I want nothing you don’t give me freely, Ella.”
“The bracelet tells the world that you own me,” I repeat, a tight knot of emotion in my chest. “Does it tell them that I own you?”
He pulls me to him and cups my head. “You do own me, Ella. The good, the bad, and the very damn ugly. And my worst fear is that you can’t handle that. That’s why I didn’t come to you tonight. But I need you to handle it. Do you understand? I need you to be able to handle it.” He kisses me, hard and fast, but it is passionate and deep, a short taste of torment and ecstasy, before he tears his mouth from mine.
He turns me to face the open passenger seat, his hands bracketing my waist, his mouth at my ear as he says, “Get in the car, before I pull your dress up and fuck you right here in the garage, which would be far more appealing than this party, which we can’t miss.”
I inhale on what has become his confession, and that is the trust that has me climbing into the car, breathing a little easier. And once I’m there, I look to my right, where he still stands, staring down at me, his gaze half veiled. His attention is like a warm blanket on a cold night. Heavy and addictive. He shuts the