“He’s out in Westwatch.” Harrow takes another sip of his drink. “Oh, that’s right, you know nothing about us. Let me explain.”
“I can find out on my own,” I say curtly.
“Westwatch is the fortress along the great wall that borders the fae forests,” he explains anyway. “It was built a few hundred years ago and helps keep their infighting out from our lands. Such an honorable appointment for the noble Drestin.” Harrow looks at the corner of the room, angry at something I can’t see.
I laugh softly and shake my head.
“What’s so funny?”
“You remind me of a friend, is all. She has two sisters and the fights they got into are legendary.” I wonder how Emma is. I hope her heart is holding up enough that Ruth isn’t flying off the handle at every turn. She should have enough potion in stock to last a few days…but she’ll have to take the ferry to Lanton for more when she runs out. Now it’s my heart that’s aching on her behalf.
“Don’t compare me to you humans and your pathetic plebeian problems.”
I laugh, loudly. “Forgive me, mighty elf prince. Because you sound so far above us lowly folk when you’re clearly just jealous of your brothers.”
“You don’t know anything about me.” Harrow throws the mug across the room. What little liquid was left in it splatters across the floor before it lands with a loud crash, shattering.
I jump, but immediately work to keep my composure.
“Clean that up, human.” He points at the mess he made and storms toward the door.
Harrow freezes when Hook’s growl turns into an angry bark. He turns, and the moment his eyes meet the wolf’s, Hook lunges.
“Hook, no!” I shout. Magic thrums within me. I see the potion I made for Harrow steam off the floor and disappear. Balance heeds my demands on instinct—potion in exchange for a barrier.
Fresh growth springs up impossibly from the wooden floorboards. Hook stops suddenly, barking at the wall of saplings I’ve erected between him and Harrow. He looks back at me with his golden eyes as Harrow glances between us.
“Hook, no,” I repeat, somehow managing to keep my voice steady despite the magic I just performed. How did I do that? Luckily Hook backs down.
“You…” Harrow’s eyes take up almost as much space on his head as his massive ears.
“That was the second time I saved your life today. A thank you would be appropriate,” I say with narrowed eyes.
All I get is a glare, and Harrow’s swift departure, leaving me with the thrill and awe of the magic still tingling in my fingers.
Chapter 18
I never tell Willow what happened with Harrow. I’m not quite sure why. I know Willow would take my side and I know, if anything, he’d be proud of me for how deftly I used my magic.
But something about the exchange felt private. I have a wriggling notion that Harrow wouldn’t want people to know about his vulnerable state. As much as I want to ignore that sense, I can’t. The privacy of my patients is sacred to me, in the Natural World and in Midscape.
So Willow and I part ways with him none the wiser, some excuse made about a potion attempt gone wrong to explain away the floorboards Willow fixed with his wild magic.
That night I burn the midnight oil and I’m up with the dawn. I scour the journals I’ve taken from the laboratory, searching for any clues as to how equilibrium is created between the queen, the redwood throne, and the seasons. I start with Alice’s journal, but the quality of her entries diminishes with age.
Her pen lines are shaky. The once masterful drawings are rough sketches, wobbly and hard to decipher. Without warning, they stop altogether.
It fills my chest with a deep pain unlike any other I’ve felt. I can see her in that laboratory, working the last energy from her fingers while they will cooperate. I imagine her hands trembling without her permission until she can no longer hold a pen. I imagine her alone, longing for her brother—the comfort of family—and to smell the salt air of Capton just once more.
I imagine myself, ninety years from now, withering in this cold place with nothing but the agony of the redwood throne filling my days. It’s a cold and bleak thought, one I try and put away with Alice’s journal.
After that, I read the writings of the queens before Alice. It’s easier to thumb through the pages that lead up to their