"Birth is nothing but death begun, so hear my prayer.
"Death is speechless, so hear my speech."
The words drifted away into the haze of green and gold.
Roland let them, then set upon the rest. He spoke more quickly now.
"This is Jake, who served his ka and his tet. Say true.
"May the forgiving glance of S'mana heal his heart. Say please.
"May the arms of Gan raise him from the darkness of this earth. Say please.
"Surround him, Gan, with light.
"Fill him, Chloe, with strength.
"If he is thirsty, give him water in the clearing.
"If he is hungry, give him food in the clearing.
"May his life on this earth and the pain of his passing become as a dream to his waking soul, and let his eyes fall upon every lovely sight; let him find the friends that were lost to him, and let every one whose name he calls call his in return.
"This is Jake, who lived well, loved his own, and died as ka would have it.
"Each man owes a death. This is Jake. Give him peace."
He knelt a moment longer with his hands clasped between his knees, thinking he had not understood the true power of sorrow, nor the pain of regret, until this moment.
I cannot bear to let him go.
But once again, that cruel paradox: if he didn't, the sacrifice was in vain.
Roland opened his eyes and said, "Goodbye, Jake. I love you, dear."
Then he closed the blue hood around the boy's face against the rain of earth that must follow.
ELEVEN
When the grave was filled and the rocks placed over it, Roland walked back to the clearing by the road and examined the tale the various tracks told, simply because there was nothing else to do. When that meaningless task was finished, he sat down on a fallen log. Oy had stayed by the grave, and Roland had an idea he might bide there. He would call the bumbler when Mrs.
Tassenbaum returned, but knew Oy might not come; if he didn't, it meant that Oy had decided to join his friend in the clearing. The bumbler would simply stand watch by Jake's grave until starvation (or some predator) took him. The idea deepened Roland's sorrow, but he would bide by Oy's decision.
Ten minutes later the bumbler came out of the woods on his own and sat down by Roland's left boot. "Good boy," Roland said, and stroked the bumbler's head. Oy had decided to live.
It was a small thing, but it was a good thing.
Ten minutes after that, a dark red car rolled almost silently up to the place where King had been struck and Jake killed. It pulled over. Roland opened the door on the passenger side and got in, still wincing against pain that wasn't there. Oy jumped up between his feet without being asked, lay down with his nose against his flank, and appeared to go to sleep.
"Did you see to your boy?" Mrs. Tassenbaum asked, pulling away.
"Yes. Thankee-sai."
"I guess I can't put a marker there," she said, "but later on I could plant something. Is there something you think he might like?"
Roland looked up, and for the first time since Jake's death, he smiled. 'Yes," he said. "A rose."
TWELVE
They rode for almost twenty minutes without speaking. She stopped at a small store over the Bridgton town line and pumped gas: MOBIL, a brand Roland recognized from his wanderings.
When she went in to pay, he looked up at los dngeles, running clear and true across the sky. The Path of the Beam, and stronger already, unless that was just his imagination. He supposed it didn't matter if it was. If the Beam wasn't stronger now, it soon would be. They had succeeded in saving it, but Roland felt no gladness at the idea.
When Mrs. Tassenbaum came out of the store, she was holding a singlet-style shirt with a picture of a bucka-wagon on it-a real bucka-wagon-and words written in a circle. He could make out HOME, but nothing else. He asked her what the words said.
"BRIDGTON OLD HOME DAYS, JULY 27TH TO JULY 30TH, 1999,"
she told him. "It doesn't really matter what it says as long as it covers your chest. Sooner or later we'll want to stop, and there's a saying we have in these parts: 'No shirt, no shoes, no service."
Your boots look beat-up and busted down, but I guess they'll get you through the door of most places. But topless? Huh-uh, no way Jose. I'll get you a better