We’ll talk it out, we’ll find ways around it, because that’s what it means to be in love. To forgive, to talk, and to always promise to fight for it, even when it gets hard.
But when it gets to be too much, when my ghosts start to haunt me, and all those toxic thoughts fill my head, the ones that pushed her away the first time, I reach for her. I kiss her cheek and down her body, and like I said, I wake her with my tongue in her cunt.
She moans, and her eyes flicker open as I toss her thighs over my shoulders and trace my tongue down her slit. She smiles brilliantly at me as her hands stroke through my hair.
I reward her for being so amazing, for being everything I need, and I dip my tongue inside her. Slow and steady, I make love to her pussy with my mouth, showing her everything I wish I had said those nights I struggled, showing her that I always loved her, even when I was lost in pain for a little while.
She smiles, and I know she understands, even as her hands cup her breasts, tweaking and squeezing as I watch. I grind my hardening cock into the bed to relieve some of the pressure, but this isn’t about me this time, it’s about her.
With steady strokes, I build her up, loving her clit and pussy the same way I destroyed it earlier. I kiss it all better, tasting every single inch of her until she whimpers, coming against my tongue and all over my mouth, and even then, I lick her clean. I need to taste every single drop of desire and love in her cream.
Only when she sighs do I sit back and crawl up her body, kissing her soundly. “Go back to sleep, Angel, I just needed a taste of my girl.”
She laughs and rolls over, pressing her head to my chest as I pull her into my arms and lock them around her, my legs too, so she can never escape me again. I kiss her head and she kisses my chest. “I’m not going anywhere, Tyler. Stop expecting me to,” she whispers, always knowing what’s on my mind.
“I know,” I murmur, and I do. Lexi will never leave.
She’s the one, the one I’m going to marry. I’m going to fill her belly with my child and watch our lives grow together.
I will do better this time, I have to.
Justin might be gone, but here with my girl in my arms, I know he came into my life to teach me lessons and bring her to me.
Everyone has a purpose in this universe, and even when they are gone, it’s for a reason. He’s not struggling anymore, and though my heart still is heavy with his loss, I know that it’s okay.
That it’s not my fault.
Or Lexi’s.
Sometimes bad things just happen, but if you hold on, if you survive it, the sun will always rise.
Lexi
Two Months Later…
Life is good again.
I know he’s still struggling with Justin’s death, he always will. He lost his son, and that will never just go away. But when he’s adrift in the grief or darkness, I’m there to light the way for him. He also earns my forgiveness, not that he didn’t already have it, but he tries extra hard. Breakfast is always waiting for me, my favourite flowers and wine too. It’s in the little things, like warming the car before I get into it or putting the heat on before I get home…all of them show me how much he loves me.
In return, he pulls me from my doubts and propels me higher than I ever knew I could go. He teaches me what true love looks like. He’s always there, he’s always forgiving and caring. He cooks for me, he shops with me. From lazy days to adventures, we do it all together.
We ignore the looks, and eventually, those who know us get tired of hating on us. We lose some friends, but Tyler doesn’t lose any business or family, which I’m glad for. His dad and stepmom come for dinner every Friday, and I finally understand what it means to be part of a family.
He watches me perform every Saturday, cheering the loudest and clapping. He’s beyond proud of me. He also attends my theatrical shows every single weekend. Without fail, I find him beyond the lights, love shining in his