Crazy Stupid Bromance (Bromance Book Club #3) - Lyssa Kay Adams Page 0,9
was still there. When she went to the grocery store. When she met new people. When strangers stared at her on the street. She’d catch someone looking at her as if trying to place her face, and her first instinct was to turn and hide from scrutiny. Holding your head up high was easier said than done when your face had been front-page news around the country.
“Okay, friends, are we ready to reclaim our power?”
The class answered her with a murmured yes, so Mariana repeated the question. This time, the women responded with a more resounding confirmation.
“We have some new faces with us tonight. We welcome you in peace and healing.”
A murmur of quiet greetings rose in response.
“Let’s start in Sukhasana pose tonight as we state our affirmations.”
The women matched her cross-legged pose on the floor, letting their hands drape across their knees.
“I am strong,” Mariana said.
The women repeated it.
“Tonight, I reclaim my power . . . my body . . . my strength . . .”
Alexis closed her eyes and repeated the words, needing them more than she had in a long time. Though she was used to Karen’s petty complaints, today’s visit was especially annoying because she had chased off Candi. But Alexis soon lost herself in the flow of body, the connection of mind and spirit. The healing power of stretching and pushing her body.
Mariana led them through each pose with calm instructions and encouragement, stopping here and there to assist a newcomer with their body alignment, only putting her hands on them after asking permission to touch them. That was one of the most important aspects of the class—claiming ownership of their bodies once again. Taking back what was once stolen from them.
There was no trauma competition in this room with these women. No one’s suffering measured against another’s for its devastation or its scope. Every person here had been violated and silenced, and every woman had made the decision to find their voice again.
About ten minutes before the end of the class, the soft scuff of the door against the floor drew Alexis’s gaze over her shoulder. She stumbled in her tree pose. Candi stood wide-eyed and red-cheeked in the door as twenty faces turned to look at her.
“I’m sorry . . .” she stammered, hugging a large black bag to her side. “I didn’t know this was . . . I’m sorry.”
Alexis tiptoed out of her line. “Please stay,” she said in an urgent hush. “We can talk in my office, if you’d like.”
“I’m sorry to interrupt,” Candi whispered. “I didn’t know you were having a class tonight.”
“It’s okay. We’re almost done.” Alexis darted another glance at the class, which had clearly lost its collective concentration. “Let’s go in my office.”
Candi worried her bottom lip with her teeth but finally nodded. She walked with her head down like a kid being marched to the principal’s office as she followed Alexis through the café, behind the counter, and into the kitchen. The thwap-thwap of the swinging door was as loud as a firecracker in the otherwise quiet room.
Alexis led her to her closet-size office and motioned to the chair wedged against the wall. “It’s small, I know. But would you like to sit?”
Candi stood indecisively in the minuscule space between the desk and the door. Finally, she dropped into the chair but remained perched on the edge, one knee bopping up and down as she gnawed at her lower lip. “That’s really cool. The yoga class.”
Alexis nodded, sitting in her own chair. “It’s been very successful.”
“So all those women were, I mean, are—”
“Survivors of sexual violence or harassment, yes.”
“Wow. That’s terrible.”
Alexis heard that refrain a lot, and she had the same response every time. “It’s terrible what was done to them, but what they’re doing tonight is a wonderful way to take back their power.”
Candi swallowed hard.
“You’re not alone, Candi.”
“I— no.” Candi shook her head. She opened and closed her mouth twice before finally letting out a frustrated breath. “I’m not here about that. I mean, I’m not a . . . a—”
“A survivor?”
“Right. I’m not here to talk to you about that.”
Alexis tilted her head, struck again with the fleeting sense of familiarity. “Are you sure we’ve never met before?”
“You said it’s my eyes,” Candi said. “My eyes look familiar.”
Alexis looked more closely. She was right. They shared the same golden, green-flecked irises rimmed by a darker brown.