returned for a longer good-bye. His lips felt so warm; and after a second, his tongue felt even warmer. His head turned slightly to get a better angle, and then he went at it again. His right hand hovered above me, trying to find a place to settle that wouldn’t hurt me. Finally he covered my left hand with his. Oh boy, this was good. But only my mouth and my lower pelvis were happy. The rest of me hurt. His hand slid, in a questioning sort of way, up to my breast, and I gave a sharp gasp.
“Oh, God, I hurt you!” he said. His lips looked very full and red after the long kiss, and his eyes were brilliant.
I felt obliged to apologize. “I’m just so sore,” I said.
“What did they do to you?” he asked. “Not just a few slaps across the face?”
He had imagined my swollen face was my most serious problem.
“I wish that had been it,” I said, trying to smile.
He truly looked stricken. “And here I am, making a pass at you.”
“Well, I didn’t push you away,” I said mildly. (I was too sore to push.) “And I didn’t say, ‘No, sir, how dare you force your attentions on me!’ ”
Alcide looked somewhat startled. “I’ll come back by soon,” he promised. “If you need anything, you call me.” He fished a card out of his pocket and laid it on the table by the couch. “This has got my work number on it, and I’m writing my cell number on the back, and my home number. Give me yours.” Obediently, I recited the numbers to him, and he wrote them down in, no kidding, a little black book. I didn’t have the energy to make a joke.
When he was gone, the house felt extra empty. He was so big and so energetic—so alive—he filled large spaces with his personality and presence.
It was a day for me to sigh.
Having talked to Jason at Merlotte’s, Arlene came by at half past five. She surveyed me, looked as if she were suppressing a lot of comments she really wanted to make, and heated me up some Campbell’s. I let it cool before I ate it very carefully and slowly, and felt the better for it. She put the dishes in the dishwasher, and asked me if I needed any other help. I thought of her children waiting for her at home, and I said I was just fine. It did me good to see Arlene, and to know she was struggling with herself about speaking out of turn made me feel even better.
Physically, I was feeling more and more stiff. I made myself get up and walk a little (though it looked more like a hobble), but as my bruises became fully developed and the house grew colder, I began to feel much worse. This was when living alone really got to you, when you felt bad or sick and there was no one there.
You might feel a little sorry for yourself, too, if you weren’t careful.
To my surprise, the first vampire to arrive after dark was Pam. Tonight she was wearing a trailing black gown, so she was scheduled to work at Fangtasia. Ordinarily, Pam shunned black; she was a pastels kind of female. She yanked at the chiffon sleeves impatiently.
“Eric says you may need a female to help you,” she said impatiently. “Though why I am supposed to be your lady’s maid, I don’t know. Do you really need help, or is he just trying to curry favor with you? I like you well enough, but after all, I am vampire, and you are human.”
That Pam, what a sweetie.
“You could sit and visit with me for a minute,” I suggested, at a loss as to how to proceed. Actually, it would be nice to have help getting into and out of the bathtub, but I knew Pam would be offended to be asked to perform such a personal task. After all, she was vampire, I was human. . . .
Pam settled into the armchair facing the couch. “Eric says you can fire a shotgun,” she said, more conversationally. “Would you teach me?”
“I’d be real glad to, when I’m better.”
“Did you really stake Lorena?”
The shotgun lessons were more important than the death of Lorena, it seemed.
“Yes. She would’ve killed me.”
“How’d you do it?”
“I had the stake that had been used on me.”
Then Pam had to hear about that, and ask me how it felt, since I