Buttercup (Spell Library #10) - Helen Scott Page 0,38

he replied cautiously.

"I'm on board," Ausar added, and it was like hearing all four of them admit that they were in this made something click within me.

Emotions washed through me, some sticking, some passing, but I wasn't sure if any of them actually belonged to me. Lust was the primary one, which definitely could be me, but I hadn't been feeling quite as horny a second ago. There was also apprehension, curiosity, a massive pit of loneliness, and a steady thrum of love underneath it all.

I looked from man to man, curious where the emotions were coming from, and if I was actually reading the room right, or if my brain was just picking up random emotions from people nearby. Lust was shining brightly in both Magnus's and Casper's eyes, but so was curiosity. What they had to be curious about I wasn't sure, since they'd already seen me naked and seen me orgasm, and even seen my demon side come out.

Ausar and Logan were both radiating loneliness, as well as apprehension. It was coming off them in giant waves that were metaphysically buffeting me about. I glanced over at Ausar, but the sphinx was a mystery, and I couldn't tell anything about what he was feeling from his face, just from what I could feel.

Longing wound its way toward me, and I had to push away from Casper as the feelings became too intense. "I can't..."

"What's wrong?" Logan asked.

"Buttercup?" Ausar's voice echoed through me, making the uncertainty and loneliness magnify.

"I can't breathe," I gasped as I fell to my knees on the floor. My eyes searched for the one person who might be able to help. Magnus.

He was beside me in a second. "You're okay. Take one emotion at a time. Focus on it, let it pass through you, take only what you want and need."

I tried to focus on the loneliness I felt coming in waves from Ausar and Logan. Looking up, they were both still standing awkwardly, ready to jump in and help if they could, but none of us knew what we were doing. I reached out to them, one hand in each direction, and they dropped to their knees, taking my hands in theirs.

"You're not alone anymore. We are a family. It might not feel like it right now, and I know we've got a lot to figure out, but we'll get there. You'll never be alone again, not so long as I still draw breath," I said, squeezing each of their hands as I looked between the two of them.

Ausar looked at me with amazement, while Logan's gaze was pure love. I felt the shift between them, the new emotions growing and taking over, pushing the uncertainty and loneliness away.

With the loneliness pushed to the side the biggest emotion was lust. Love was still present underneath it, but right now the need to be naked, to have sweaty bodies writhing against one another in pursuit of pleasure, was the only thing I could think about. My succubus side seemed to be extremely interested in the idea given how my body was responding to it.

"Stop thinking sexy thoughts, all of you." I almost yelled it at them but got control of myself at the last second.

"Drop your glamour," Magnus said, still kneeling right next to me. "Let go of anything that's holding you down. Let your succubus free so she can feed."

I did as he asked, even though it scared me. Letting go of my glamour was as easy as flexing my back muscles, it was the letting my succubus free part that I was struggling with. I could feel the new magic inside me, it had been growing ever since my skin changed color.

Now, I pulled on it, trying to drag it to the surface, but as soon as I let go it snapped back, like I was trying to stretch a rubber band. Each time it snapped back it felt like it was getting closer to breaking, and I wasn't sure what the consequences of that would be. Finally, after fighting with it for way too long, I relaxed. Instead of trying to force it, I encouraged it. I treated it like a stray kitten that I was trying to capture. Force and dominance would only scare it away.

Little by little the magic filled me up, coming out of the cage it had been locked in all my life until I could feel it throughout my whole body, from my fingers to my