Brick Brick (Knights Corruption MC - Next Generation, #4) - S. Nelson Page 0,31
I concoct some crazy story in my head.”
I closed my eyes for a beat, then met his stare. “Remember when you asked me if Andy liked me? If she had a thing for me?”
He frowned. “Of course.”
“Well… the thing is… um… Andy and… well… you see—”
“Holy fuck, Zo! Spit it out.” His hands found a home on my waist and his fingers dug in. I wanted him to look anywhere but directly into my eyes, but he held steady. I didn’t even think he blinked the entire time I sat on top of him.
The lump that started in my throat spread, suffocating my breath and any sense I still had left that this conversation was a good idea.
Say it. Blurt it out and let the proverbial chips fall where they may.
My inner demand did nothing to quell my pounding pulse, but it was now or never. He deserved the truth so he could decide if he wanted to stay with me or move on.
“Andy’s my ex.”
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I had so many damn questions but the first one I needed to start with was “How long?”
She shifted around on top of me and the only thing she managed to accomplish was making me hard.
“How long were we together or how long ago did it end?”
“Both.” I managed to keep my voice even keel so as not to make her think I was upset. I was shocked, yes. Worried, even, but I wasn’t upset.
“We were together for a year, but we ended things about three months before I came to California. Although….” She stopped talking and tilted her head from side to side, like she was contemplating something else to tell me.
“Although what?”
“We still messed around after breaking up.”
“So, you continued to have sex even though you weren’t together?”
“Yes.” She dipped her head and tore her eyes from mine. “Can I get up now?”
“No.”
She continued to look away and it pissed me off. “Look at me, Zoe.” She refused. “Please.” Still no movement. “I’m not mad if that’s what you’re worried about.” The confirmation I wasn’t upset over her reveal finally made her pick her head back up. Her green eyes shimmered with unshed tears. I cupped her cheeks and pulled her close. “Why are you gonna cry, baby?”
“Because I was worried you wouldn’t want to be with me anymore.” One lone tear escaped and drifted down her cheek.
“Why would you think that? Because you’re bisexual?” She nodded, another tear following the first. “Why would you think I’d care?”
“Because some people don’t understand. Or they don’t agree.”
“Fuck ’em.” My retort made her smile. “Who cares what anyone thinks? It’s your life. You do what makes you happy. Although, I do have to ask you somethin’.”
Her breaths came faster, and her bottom lip trembled.
“What’s that?”
“Do you prefer men or women?”
“I prefer you,” she answered, placing her hands on my chest. “Before I met you, I’d only been with two other men. The rest were women. I don’t really have a preference, it’s whoever I feel the connection with.”
“Do you think you’ll get bored of me eventually and want to be with a woman?”
“That’s like asking me if I’ll get bored with you and want to be with another man. The gender doesn’t matter. All I can tell you is that I’m drawn to you on some level I can’t explain. I want to be with you.”
“Did you love her?” While trying to process what she told me, I needed to get as many answers as I could before she decided to shut down or get annoyed with my questions.
“I did.”
“Do you still?”
There was a pause before she answered, one which made me nervous. “Not that way. I care for her, but no, I’m not in love with her anymore.”
“But you still had sex with her after you broke up?” My question was rhetorical, of course, because she’d already told me she had.
“Haven’t you ever had sex with an ex?”
I had to think about that for a moment. It’d been years since my last serious relationship. Her name was Kim. My working as a bouncer at the strip club finally got to be too much for her and she gave me an ultimatum. It was either my job or her, and since I didn’t honestly see myself ending up with her in the long run, I chose my job. Since then I’d only engaged in casual sex because I hadn’t met anyone I wanted to wake up next to the following morning.