Of course it is. I'm just pointing out that being unwanted is not a first for me. Not really a motivating factor, if you know what I mean.
I gritted my teeth and tried to get my head straight.
Did Sam send you?
If I was here on Sam's errand, you wouldn't be able to hear me. My allegiance is no longer with him.
I listened carefully to the thoughts mixed in with the words. If this was a diversion or a ploy, I had to be alert enough to see through it. But there was nothing. Her declaration was nothing but the truth. Unwilling, almost despairing truth.
You're loyal tome now? I asked with deep sarcasm. Uh-huh. Right.
My choices are limited. I'm working with the options I've got. Trust me, I'm not enjoying this any more than you are.
That wasn't true. There was an edgy kind of excitement in her mind. She was unhappy about this, but she was also riding some weird high. I searched her mind, trying to understand.
She bristled, resenting the intrusion. I usually tried to tune Leah out - I'd never tried to make sense of her before.
We were interrupted by Seth, thinking his explanation at Edward. Leah whined anxiously. Edward's face, framed in the same window as last night, showed no reaction to the news. It was a blank face, dead.
Wow, he looks bad,Seth muttered to himself. The vampire showed no reaction to that thought, either. He disappeared into the house. Seth pivoted and headed back out to us. Leah relaxed a little.
What's going on?Leah asked. Catch me up to speed.
There's no point You're not staying.
Actually, Mr. Alpha, I am. Because since apparently I have to belong tosomeone - and don't think I haven't tried breaking off on my own, you know yourself how wellthat doesn 't work - choose you.
Leah, you don't like me. I don't like you.
Thank you, Captain Obvious. That doesn't matter to me. I'm staying with Seth.
You don't like vampires. Don't you think that's a little conflict of interest right there?
You don't like vampires either.
But Iam committed to this alliance. You aren't.
I'll keep my distance from them. I can run patrols out here, just like Seth.
And I'm supposed to trust you with that?
She stretched her neck, leaning up on her toes, trying to be as tall as me as she stared into my eyes. will not betray my pack.
I wanted to throw my head back and howl, like Seth had before. This isn't your pack! This isn't even a pack. This is just me, going off on my own! What is it with you Clearwaters? Why can't you leave me alone?
Seth, just coming up behind us now, whined; I'd offended him. Great.
I've been helpful, haven't I, Jake?
You haven't madetoo much a nuisance of yourself, kid, but if you and Leah are a package deal - if the only way to get rid of her is for you to go home.... Weil, can you blame me for wanting you gone?
Ugh, Leah, you ruin everything!
Yeah, I know,she told him, and the thought was loaded with the heaviness of her despair.
I felt the pain in the three little words, and it was more than I would've guessed. I didn't want to feel that. I didn't want to feel bad for her. Sure, the pack was rough on her, but she brought it all on herself with the bitterness that tainted her every thought and made being in her head a nightmare.
Seth was feeling guilty, too. Jake... You're not really gonna send me away, are you? Leah's not so bad. Really. I mean, with her here, we can push the perimeter out farther. And this puts Sam down to seven. There's no way he's going to mount an attack that outnumbered. It's probably a good thing....
You know I don't want to lead a pack, Seth.
So don't lead us,Leah offered.
I snorted. Sounds perfect to me. Run along home now.
Jake,Seth thought. belong here. I do like vampires. Cullens, anyway. They're people to me, and I'm going to protect them, 'cause that's what we're supposed to do.
Maybe you belong, kid, but your sister doesn't And she's going to go wherever you are -
I stopped short, because I saw something when I said that. Something Leah had been trying not to think.
Leah wasn't going anywhere.
Thought this was about Seth,I thought sourly.
She flinched. Of course I'm here for Seth.
And to get away from Sam.
Her jaw clenched. don't have to explain myself to you. I just have to do