her more than anything and she is my family. I don’t know why I haven’t told her what happened except that maybe part of me is embarrassed that he fooled me. I sigh. “He blames himself for his dead girlfriend’s car wreck, and I found a photo of her and…well, we look very similar…” I can’t go on. I don’t even want to think about the letter.
Mara fires up a cig and blows out smoke. “I see. A doppelgänger situation. Sounds like a good HBO movie.”
I huff out a laugh and several moments go by. I feel her thinking, assessing the situation.
“When you were with him, how did you feel?”
“Feel? God, I would have burned the whole world down to be with him, and I thought…I thought he was right there with me.”
She takes another toke. “You say you look like her, and I can’t answer for Z, but I know you can’t fake real emotion. Those cracks always come through when something isn’t true. Your heart knows.”
My heart doesn’t know shit. It’s dead. Empty. I never knew a person could reach this level of…nothingness.
I run my fingers over the rim of the cup, and she sighs from her seat, moving on. “Speaking of breakups, I remember when Clint broke my heart. One night in Vegas and he was off with the wind, but he was upfront about it.”
I sip my tea. She always knows how to make me smile. “Give me his digits and I’ll ring him up. I could use some rebound sex.”
Her eyes flare and I have to laugh.
Julia waltzes in the door dressed in a new sparkly gold corset and booty shorts. She must have heard my comment because she looks straight at me. “That’s true. We really need to get you back in the saddle, my friend.”
“Doesn’t work for me,” I say.
Her hands are on her hips. “And I have the perfect guy—this dude named Dallas who mentioned to me he was in your poetry class. Apparently he saw us talking to Eric and he sent me a text.”
Wow. “He’s quite persistent.”
“Tenacious, which you happen to go for. Plus, he’s hot,” she says.
“Nah.” I raise an eyebrow. “Don’t you need to go shake some ass, Barbarella?”
She snorts. “Mama does need some dollars, but don’t try your passive aggressive shit with me. I’m not giving up stripping, no matter how many jokes you make.”
I arch a brow. “Meow. Someone’s sensitive tonight.” I tap my chin. “Could a certain hockey player be the reason? Oh, wait, you don’t know him. Riiight.”
She puffs up. “I’m on a break right now, thank you, and you are not the boss of me. Isn’t that right, Mara?”
Mara smokes her cig, looking at us with a smile on her face. “Oh, she is honey. After me, that is.”
I laugh just as Mara’s office phone rings. She speaks to the person and then waves it at me, her eyes big. “It’s Mr. Winchester from Birmingham for you.”
I motion to her that I don’t want to talk to him. He’s been calling my cell for over a week and I’m avoiding him.
She gives me an exasperated look when she hands it over. “Take it.”
Fine.
I put it up to my ear. “Hello?”
“Miss Ryan?” His tone is dry and wintry and utterly professional. I picture the tall and lanky man who came here in January to tell me my father was dead. “Finally.”
I pace around the room, holding the phone tight. “Yes?”
“I just wanted to confirm that you’ll be in Davenport for the reading of the will. It’s in two weeks.”
My chest constricts. Of course I know when it is. I have it saved in my phone and Mara has it circled on her desk calendar. “I will not.”
There’s a long silence from him and then his voice softens. “Before you make up your mind, I want you to know there is no animosity toward you here.”
I huff out a laugh. “I find that hard to believe with the way my father cheated on their mother for years.”
He seems to take a breath. “I hope you change your mind. It might…do you some good to come back and see where you came from.”
“Please don’t assume you know what’s good for me. I don’t take well to condescension, Mr. Winchester.”
“I apologize.” He continues, clearing his throat. “I conveyed your waitlist situation to Mrs. Mitchell, and she’s sent in a letter of recommendation for you.”
My hands grip the phone, and Mara reaches over and pushes the speaker button.