The Boy from Reactor 4 - By Orest Stelmach Page 0,18
birdlike jaw leading the way. The belt from her black satin robe dangled behind her like the tail of a pterodactyl that had escaped with the T. rex. After preparing two cups, she joined Nadia at the kitchen table.
Nadia looked at the photographs scattered all around. In one, her father stood beside Marko on Mount Carleton, the Canadian peak of the Appalachian Trail. Her father, windswept hair like an angry lion. Marko, a pipsqueak, about eight.
“Do you have any pictures of Father when he was young? When he lived in Ukraine?”
“I have some pictures when we met in Lviv. After he was bit by the nationalist bug and moved from Kyiv. And I have some wedding pictures, but of course, we got married here in ’71. Why are you asking? Are you still obsessing over what your father did and didn’t do for the Partisans? What’s wrong with you?”
“What’s wrong with me? When I lost my job, I took a look at my life.”
“Oh, really. And what did you see?”
“Nothing, Mama. I saw nothing, because other than my career, I have nothing. I have no one.”
“You have nothing,” she said under her breath. “You have a college education, you have your health, and you’re an American citizen. You have everything.”
“That’s not what I mean.”
“I know what you mean. And what does this have to do with your father? Wait. Let me guess. Your father didn’t dote on you, and after he died, there was no man around the house, so you have trust issues, right? You can’t hold a relationship with any man, and he’s to blame.”
“No, he’s not to blame—”
“No, he’s not. You are. Because your entire life has been about money. You’re just another in a long line of Tesla quick-buck artists. Working with those criminals on Wall Street. You could have stayed in Hartford and been a mortgage banker. Helped people buy homes.”
“Yeah. That would have been much better.”
“You want a man? Be a woman. Go get a man. Stop blaming your father.”
“I’m not blaming him. I’m just trying to find out who he was. You never want to talk about him. You never answer any of my questions. So I have to do it on my own, don’t I?”
Nadia studied a photo of Marko and her in Ukrainian scout outfits, army-green shorts and matching knee-high socks.
“This is a nice one of Marko and me,” Nadia said. “I was hoping you might have one of Father and his brother.”
The teacup froze at the edge of her mother’s lips. “Well…I don’t know…I don’t think…You know, it was a tragedy. He died so young.” She blew on the tea and took a sip. “Why the sudden interest in your father’s brother? You never asked about him before.”
Nadia squeezed lemon into her cup. “Because I met someone who knew him. My uncle didn’t die as a child, like you and Father said. His name was Damian, and he was a vor. A thief, as in Thieves-in-Law, right?”
Her mother’s face dropped. “Who told you this?”
“An old friend of his.”
“What old friend?”
“Victor Bodnar.”
Nadia’s mother lowered her teacup nervously. It rattled to its place on her plate. “Dear God. Victor Bodnar. I would have thought he was in hell by now. I can’t believe his name is coming out of my daughter’s mouth.”
“I didn’t know who he really was.”
“He’s a thief. A con artist. He makes a living stealing from honest people. How and why did you meet him?”
“It’s complicated. One thing led to another…” Nadia motioned at the photos. “What’s with all the pictures? Why the trip down memory lane all of a sudden?”
Nadia’s mother waited a beat. “I’m looking for the same thing you are.”
“What do you mean?”
“Your father’s brother. Damian. I’m looking for pictures of Damian.”
“Why?”
“Because I’ve been getting letters from Ukraine from a man claiming to be him.”
Nadia’s mother slid two sheets of faded white paper across the table.
Dear Vera,
How do you start a letter to your sister-in-law when fifty years have passed since you last saw her? When she thinks you’re dead?
You don’t.
But I have to.
So let me try again.
Dear Vera,
I’m not dead. I’m alive. I know you won’t believe this until I offer you some proof. And even then, you may not care. But it’s not for my sake that I write. Let me explain.
I was found guilty of theft of state funds and sentenced to hard labor at Sevvostlag in 1960, when I was twenty. I was not buried in asphalt, the way everyone was told.