across the carpet. He entered the wedge of light, and his gaze penetrated into the bathroom. He saw Tracy's back, or rather a slice of it, pale and unblemished. Lower was the swell of her buttocks and the deep crease between. The pulse of pleasure in his groin was so extreme it bordered on pain. There was that thing about her - his hatred and his dependence - that made him weak. He despised himself, but he could not help moving toward the door and pushing it farther open.
The door, old and peeling, creaked, and Tracy peered at him over her shoulder. Her body was revealed to him in all its glory. She looked at him with a pity and loathing that brought an animal sound to his lips. Hurriedly, he pulled the door shut. When she emerged, he could not look at her. He heard her cross the room and close the window.
"Where were you brought up?" she said.
It was not a question, but a slap in the face. He could not answer her, and for that - for many things - he burned to kill her, to feel the cartilage in her throat rupture beneath the pressure of his fingers, to feel her blood running hotly in his hands. Yet he was bound to her, as she was bound to him. They were locked in hateful orbit, with no possibility of escape.
But Tracy did escape, he thought now, into death. He missed her, hated himself for missing her. She was the only woman who had refused him. Up until now, that is. As his eyes refocused on Soraya folding up the FMG, he felt a premonitory shiver run through him. For a moment, he saw her skull, and she looked like death. Then everything snapped back into focus and he could breathe again.
Unlike Tracy, her skin was burnished a golden bronze. Like Tracy, she had revealed herself to him when she stripped off the T-shirt he had loaned her to use as a tourniquet for Moira's thigh. She had heavy breasts, the nipples dark and erect. He could see them now, beneath her top, see them as clearly as if she were still half naked.
"It's because you can't have me," Soraya said as if reading his mind.
"On the contrary, I could have you right now."
"Rape me, you mean."
"Yes."
"If you were going to," she said, turning her back on him, "you would have already."
He came up behind her and said, "Don't tempt me."
She whirled around. "Your rage is toward men, not women."
He glared at her, unmoving.
"You get off on killing men and seducing women. But rape? You'd no more consider raping a woman than I would."
His mind raced back to his hometown of Nizhny Tagil, where he had briefly become a member of Stas Kuzin's gang, rounding up girls off the streets to stock Kuzin's savage brothel. Night after night he'd heard the girls' screams and cries as they were raped and beaten. In the end, he'd killed Kuzin and half his gang.
"Rape is for animals," he said in a thick voice. "I'm not an animal."
"That's your life: the struggle to be a man, not an animal."
He looked away.
"Did Treadstone do this to you?"
He laughed. "Treadstone was the least of it. It was everything that happened before, everything I try to forget."
"Curious. For Bourne it's just the opposite. His struggle is to remember."
"He's lucky, then," Arkadin snarled.
"It's a great pity you're enemies."
"God made us enemies." Arkadin took the weapon from her. "A god named Alexander Conklin."
Do you know how to die, Bourne?" Tanirt whispered.
"You were born on Siwa's day: the last day of the month, which is both the ending and the beginning. Do you understand? You are destined to die and be born again." This was what Suparwita had told him only days ago in Bali.
"I've died once," he said, "and was reborn."
"Flesh, flesh, only flesh," she muttered. And then: "This is different."
Tanirt said this with a force he felt through every fiber of his being. He leaned toward her, the promise of her thighs and her breasts drawing him into her orbit.
He shook his head. "I don't understand."
Her hands gripped him, pulling him even closer. "There is only one way to explain." She turned and led him back into the sweets shop. In the far corner she pushed several fragrant bales out of the way, revealing a wooden staircase, full of dust and crystals of palm sugar. They ascended to an upper floor that was, or until