deep end was becoming less and less of a possibility. If, at some point in life, limits became necessary. The problem with that was, I didn’t know how to live in the shallows. Didn’t know how to continue to be Nico with the bottom right below my feet. When there were barriers.
Which was why my head had been so fucked up with Lexi. With her, there had to be limits. I couldn’t just do whatever the fuck I wanted. For one thing, our situation wasn’t permanent. The bottom was always visible beneath our feet—it had to stay that way. Two, her father could stir up some bad shit in my life if things between Lexi and I went south.
And we were on the cusp of exceeding one of those limits tonight. In this room. With her mouth full of my dick.
But not yet.
“How do I taste, legs?”
She moaned. “Like chocolate bourbon and sex.”
That tore a groan from me. “How are those taste buds now?”
“Crazed. Overwhelmed.”
Another groan. “They’re about to be committed to an asylum.”
The harder she worked me, the more voraciously she sucked, the antsier she became. When a frustrated whimper escaped her mouth, I peeked over my knees to see her clenching her thighs.
“Is your sweet little clit feeling neglected? Does it need some attention?”
She nodded, even as her tongue snaked up my length, sending a shiver up my spine.
“Don’t torment the poor thing. The way you’re sucking me so good is making her throb for it. Rub right over that tiny button and give her what she needs.”
Again, she impressed me with her obedience. She shoved her hand inside her panties and stroked in the same rhythm that her mouth stroked me. I switched my attention back and forth between watching her finger herself and watching my erection disappear into her mouth. I knew when her climax slammed into her because her teeth extended beyond her lips and grazed my flesh.
That brief sting of pain was fucking magnificent.
Her breaths were ragged by the time her legs ceased trembling. While I was barely holding on to the edge of the cliff by my fingernails.
One final command.
One last thing I needed to see before I could release the torrent of sexual tension that had been building up inside since the day I met her.
“Put them in your mouth.”
Her gaze collided with mine.
I nodded down at her hand. “Suck if off. I want you to taste both of us when I spill.”
More obedience. In fact, she acted like she was powerless against my demands.
I lost my grip on the cliff and plummeted to my death.
I was actually surprised that emptying myself down Lexi’s throat didn’t kill me. Because for a second there, I could have sworn I’d glimpsed heaven.
Even more bewildering was how we fell into comfortable silence after she sucked me dry. As if it was something she’d done a thousand times, she laid her head on my thigh. And I stroked her hair.
We said nothing.
We acknowledged nothing. At least, not out loud.
I was afraid she’d fallen asleep before she eventually sighed contentedly.
“You need to go to bed, Lexi.”
I winced at how gruff my voice came out.
“I’m pretty comfy right here, actually.” She nuzzled my leg like a pillow. “The fire’s nice and warm.”
She was refusing to leave?
What the hell was I supposed to do with that?
I usually found a way to piss her off when I wanted her to leave me alone. But for the life of me, I couldn’t come up with a single condescending remark. I needed to be an asshole to get her out of my sight and stop touching me. Needed to remind her why she hated me and didn’t want anything to do with me.
Not that I really wanted to see her go. Having her sit with me down here, a place where I usually contemplated my entire life’s worth, was shockingly soothing. The room suddenly didn’t feel as lonely.
I knew she needed to go.
But still…my mind was blank.
I sat there stewing about what strategy to take to draw her anger back out, but I couldn’t make myself do it. After what she just did, she didn’t deserve that. She’d been brave to strip for me, knowing I could have very well yelled at her to leave me the hell alone. I could have rejected her, and she’d still gone after what she wanted.
She fell asleep while I pondered.
Ten minutes later, I carried her upstairs and placed her gently in her bed.