will you please go easy on my arm? I do have a nervous system.”
She winces and pulls back from punch-cleaning him. She drops her handkerchief in the bowl and sighs. “We’re not going to leave you, Bastien. That’s not what I’m trying to say. It’s just that”—she nibbles on her lip—“we never bargained for you to be the soulmate. That’s knocked everything off balance. I mean, are you two really even soulmates? That was never proven.”
“She has a fair point,” Marcel adds. “We based that conclusion on the fact that no one else showed up at the bridge. Ailesse’s true soulmate could have been too ill to come, or maybe he was farther away and hadn’t made it there yet.”
I gape at them, amazed we’re even having this discussion. “What do you suggest, that we test that theory by killing Ailesse to see if I die, too?”
Marcel lowers his eyes. Jules bites her lip again.
“Bastien is my amouré,” Ailesse says quietly. “If you could feel what he does, you would have no doubt.”
I frown. “You can’t know what I feel.”
“No, but I can see it.” She finally lifts her umber eyes to me, and I swallow hard. I picture those same eyes staring up at me from the pit. She looked terrified and alone, the same way I felt after losing my father.
I slam my book shut. Ailesse isn’t the victim here. “I don’t have any affection for—”
“Affection has nothing to do with it.” Her voice betrays no hint of emotion. She’s listless, almost indifferent. “You were designed for me, and I was designed for you. You feel it as well as I do, Bastien.”
Heat rises in my cheeks.
Jules shakes her head in disbelief. “She’s insufferable.”
Ailesse shrugs and turns away.
I rub my hand over my face. “Can we get back on topic, please?”
“What topic is that?” Marcel leans back.
“What we do now. We need to rethink our strategy.” I don’t mention another plot to bait the queen. I agree with Ailesse that her mother won’t return. “We’ll continue to stay down here—that’s a given—and we’ll make runs for food and supplies. As for breaking the soul-bond, we already have Marcel’s books handy. We’ll comb over every passage a hundred times until we find the answer. Even if it takes weeks.”
“And then we kill her?” Jules crosses her arms.
My pulse jumps. I want to look at Ailesse, but I don’t. Instead, I stare at Jules. For years we’ve been hell-bent on revenge, but the Jules I know isn’t this bloodthirsty. She’s only callous when she’s hurting inside. I have to prove I won’t forget the pact that sealed our friendship.
“Yes,” I reply, though my stomach twists. “Then we kill her.”
21
Ailesse
SABINE LIES BESIDE ME ON her back. We’re in a meadow near Château Creux, gazing up at the Night Heavens. The stars are brilliant, the Huntress and Jackal constellations shining down on us in perfect clarity. “It’s the new moon,” Sabine tells me, one arm tucked behind her head. “This should have been your first ferrying night.”
“Yes.” A deep ache rises from the back of my throat. “But no one can ferry now, and there’s nothing I can do about it.”
“Are you sure? Don’t give up, Ailesse. There’s always something you can do.”
“But the bone flute is broken.” I turn to her, but my best friend is gone.
I’m staring into the eyes of the silver owl.
“Ailesse.”
Someone nudges my arm. My eyes crack open. Jules leans over me. “I’m heading out on another supply run. You want me to take you to the privy first?”
The thought of that reeking corner of the catacombs isn’t what startles me wide awake; it’s the tone of Jules’s voice. Calm and straightforward. No temper. It reminds me she and I have come to a gradual acceptance of each other over the last few days. It reminds me I’ve been a prisoner down here for more than two long weeks. And my mother never came back for me.
“No, I’m fine.” I slowly pull up into a sitting position on the limestone slab while Jules watches, unconvinced. Even that simple movement takes muscle-cramping effort. My captors have been feeding me and giving me water, but I’m almost completely starved of Elara’s Light. “Marcel?” I call over to him. My weak voice is barely loud enough to grab his attention. He looks up from the wreckage of books he and Bastien are poring over on the overturned cart table. “When is the new moon? Have you been keeping track?”