Blow - Kim Karr Page 0,59

scowl on his face. “I’m going to tell you right now, you give O’Shea that money and you’re opening up a can of worms you won’t be able to crawl out of. First, it means you’re getting involved in the drug ring, and you know as soon as the DEA sees you on that radar, they’ll be up your ass. And second, I know Patrick. He’s not going to let that debt be settled so easily. Even if it was O’Shea’s wife running things, O’Shea obviously knew about it. Patrick will use him until there’s nothing left and once he’s useless, Patrick will dispose of him.”

Harsh words, and I didn’t want to process them. “But he has a little girl. What if she gets hurt?”

My grandfather shrugged coolly. “Collateral damage never bothered Patrick.”

Furious, I stood back up and began pacing. “And the wife’s sister?”

Again with the cool demeanor. “More than likely, she’ll be dead by association, and anyone else who he’s close with.”

I slammed my hand against the wall.

“Admit it, boy. She’s the one?”

Annoyed, I turned to face him. “The one what?” I barked.

His face creased. “The one that has got your insides twisted all up. Whether you want to admit it to me or not, at least admit it to yourself.”

Sighing, I couldn’t believe I was saying this. “So what if she is?”

He drew in a deep worried breath. “Walk away, Logan,” he almost pleaded.

I crossed the room and stood in front of him. “I’m not doing that.”

Silence filled the space and I could see the harshness in his facial expression fading. Finally he spoke. “That’s what I thought. Tell me, what’s your father’s involvement?”

I brought my temper down a notch as well. “Minimal. He’s just the messenger. Even if Patrick wanted to involve him further, he doesn’t trust him enough.”

Gramps nodded. “That’s good. He won’t get hurt that way.”

He knew I was stronger than my father. After all, he made me that way. Not only in the physical sense, but in my fortitude as well. Gramps hadn’t taught my father the ways of the street. My grandmother wanted her boys to have a different life and he’d agreed. But as time passed, he learned that wasn’t always possible and he worried for me, which is why he took me under his wing. He taught me what he’d neglected to teach my father. That’s why my awareness and resolve was more like a soldier’s, whereas my father was like a new recruit, not entirely brought in.

Unfortunately, my father also used booze as a crutch, and that was a dangerous thing. Then again, having your life turned upside down would do that to a guy. And working with Patrick had done just that to my old man. As soon as he started, my mother found out and demanded I stay in New York full-time and attend school there. It wasn’t like I had much of a choice. My father made me go. I wanted him to move there too. He couldn’t, though, and I knew it. So instead, he was forced to lead a life he’d never wanted.

All because of what I’d done when I was fifteen.

I looked at my grandfather and braced myself for the fallout. “I’m going to have to talk to Patrick myself.”

The old man rose so fast, he had me by the shirt collar before I knew what was happening. In a beat, he pushed me back and slammed me against the wall. “You even think about going to see him and I’ll kill you myself.”

I stayed where I was. Shocked that he had that much fight left in him. “What else can I do?”

When he released me, he almost collapsed.

I grabbed him and helped him back to the bed.

Once he was sitting, he said, “Bring that chair over here.”

I again moved the fucking chair.

With my ass on the hard wood, he pulled my face close to his. “Here’s what you’re going to do.”

I listened intently.

Absorbing every word.

The old man knew best.

ELLE

Something wasn’t right.

I pulled into the side driveway of Michael’s corner lot and put my car in park. With a flick of the switch, the interior light turned on and I proceeded to search the floor. It wasn’t there.

My garage door opener was missing, and for some reason the button programmed into the vehicle hadn’t worked in weeks.

Feeling slightly panicky, I opened the glove compartment. It wasn’t there either. Maybe I’d stuffed it in my purse. After all, I did it all the time when