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want you to forget we’re related for the rest of the night. It was nice meeting you, Marshall.” I wink and walk away. Moving in the direction my friends went, I pass by Shaw talking to some statuesque brunette. Of course some girl is falling all over him. It’s nice to see some things never change.
His gaze burns into my cheek as I pass by. I force myself to keep my eyes focused straight ahead and not give him the satisfaction of looking his way. Even though I want to more than anything.
Saying Shaw Masters is easy on the eyes is a gross understatement. He’s the most attractive guy I’ve ever seen, and I’ve had the pleasure of watching him grow up, since he’s my brother’s best friend. And now at the age of almost twenty-one, he’s the definition of tall, dark, and handsome—the trifecta of my weaknesses. Even after not seeing him for so long, nothing has diffused my attraction to him.
Thinking about Shaw is a waste of my time and I need to just accept that as fact. But he can never know that no matter how unwanted and annoying it might be, I still have feelings for him, and I probably always will.
They say you never forget your first love. And since Shaw has been a part of my life for as far back as I can remember, I’m not likely to. You’d think after he broke my heart I could hate him or forget about him, but I haven’t. And there’s nothing I want more.
After all these years, it’s time for me to give up the fantasy of Shaw and I being together. Last year, he made it perfectly clear that I wasn’t enough for him. Maybe being at the same school will be the medicine I need to cure me of all feelings for him. Maybe I’ll see him for the jerk he really is and no longer find it possible to romanticize our past. There has to be a way to get him out of my heart, since the passing of time sure as hell hasn’t taken care of it.
Chapter Fourteen
Shaw
My entire body buzzes with awareness as Maddie walks by. My eyes glide over every inch of her, and I swear I can smell the vanilla scent of her shampoo. Her hair is blonder than I’ve ever seen it, and she looks even better than I remember.
A hand lands on my arm, drawing my attention back to the conversation I’m currently involved in. “You know what I mean?”
I turn to the girl talking to me and smile because I have no idea what she said. “Sure, Doreen.”
“My name’s Dana,” she huffs, stomping away. I shove my hands in my pockets and shake my head.
“Struck out, did ya?” Marshall laughs.
“I got her name wrong.” I grin sheepishly.
“Hey, it happens to me all the time. Sometimes it’s even after I’ve screwed them.” Marshall doesn’t do commitment. And the girls who he’s with know that and don’t seem to mind.
I’m not like him. Since I’ve been at college I’ve had one girlfriend, Joanna, and even after we broke up we still continued to have sex.
And these days, I’m more the friends-with-benefits type. Joanna and I still mess around occasionally, and there are a couple of other girls who are okay with having a sex-only arrangement.
Obviously, Dana, the girl whose name I couldn’t remember, isn’t one of them. And I can’t say I’m looking for anyone new to be my bed buddy.
Unless it was Maddie. But that can never happen. She thinks I cheated on her, and now she hates me. How could she think I’d do something so heartless? I told her that I was falling for her. She’s the only girl I’ve ever said that to. The only one who’s made me feel so much.The only one I’ve actually been in love with. Maybe I should’ve told her how far I’d actually fallen.
“Hey, thanks for looking out for my sister. She told me you played big brother before I was here. I appreciate it.”
Big brother? If he only knew my feelings for her are anything but brotherly, he’d be reacting differently.
I give a stiff nod. “Happy to help out.”
Marshall crosses his arms over his chest and a muscle in his cheek tenses. “I have a feeling looking out for her is going to be more work than we anticipated.”
“How much trouble can she get into? She’s always been focused on academics, I doubt that’s going to