“Of course not,” she said firmly. “It’s only that she’ll get well faster if your mother’s here to care for her.”
Alf snorted. “I’ll wager she don’t come.”
“Of course she will. She’s your mother.”
But she didn’t. She didn’t even reply. “Wicked,” Mrs. Bascombe said when she brought Binnie a cup of tea. “No wonder they’ve turned out the way they have. Is she breathing any easier?”
“No,” Polly said.
“This tea has hyssop in it,” Mrs. Bascombe said. “It will loosen her chest,” but Binnie was too weak to drink more than a few sips of the bitter-tasting tea and, worse, too weak to refuse to drink it.
That was the most frightening aspect of Binnie’s illness. She didn’t resist what Eileen did or even protest. All the fight had gone out of her, and she lay listlessly as Eileen bathed her, changed her nightgown, gave her the aspirin. “Are you sure she ain’t dyin’?” Alf asked her.
No, Eileen thought. I’m not sure at all. “Yes, I’m certain,” she said. “Your sister’s going to be fine.”
“If she did die, what’d ’appen to ’er?”
“You’d better worry over what’ll happen to you, young man,” Mrs. Bascombe said, coming in from the pantry. “If you want to get into heaven, you must change your ways.”
“I ain’t talking about that,” Alf said and then hesitated, looking guilty. “Would they bury ’er in the churchyard in Backbury?”
“What have you done to the churchyard?” Eileen demanded.
“Nuthin’,” he said indignantly. “I was talkin’ about Binnie,” and stomped off, but the next day when the vicar brought the post, Alf called down to him, “If Binnie dies, will she ’ave to ’ave a tombstone?”
“You mustn’t worry, Alf,” the vicar said. “Dr. Stuart and Miss O’Reilly are taking very good care of Binnie.”
“I know. Will she?”
“What’s all this about, Alf?” the vicar asked.
“Nuthin’,” Alf said and ran off again.
“Perhaps I’d best check the churchyard when I get home,” the vicar told Eileen. “Alf may have decided tombstones would make excellent roadblocks when the Germans invade.”
“No, it’s something else,” Eileen said. “If it were anyone but Alf, I’d think he was worried about his sister being”—her voice caught—“buried so far away from home.”
“There’s no improvement?” he asked kindly.
“No.” And if there hadn’t been two floors separating them, she’d have laid her head on his shoulder and sobbed.
He gave her a comforting smile and said, “I know you’re doing your best.”
But I’m afraid it’s not good enough, she thought, and went to bathe Binnie’s hot limbs and coax more aspirin into her, though she worried she might be making things worse, not better. But the next night when she didn’t wake her to give the tablets to her—deciding it was better to let her sleep—her temp immediately shot up again. Eileen resumed giving it to her, wondering what she’d do when the tablets ran out.
I’ll have to tell the vicar and hope he doesn’t tell Dr. Stuart, she thought. Or tie my sheets together and go out the window after some, but it wasn’t necessary. That afternoon Binnie’s temp abruptly went down, leaving her bathed in sweat.
“Her fever’s broken,” Dr. Stuart said. “Thank God. I feared the worst, but sometimes, with Providence’s help—and good nursing,” he patted Eileen’s hand, “the patient pulls through.”
“So she will recover?” Eileen said, looking down at Binnie. She looked so thin and pale.
He nodded. “She’s through the worst of it now.”
And she seemed to be, though she didn’t rally as quickly as the other children. It was three days before her breathing eased and a full week before she was able to sip a little broth on her own. And she was so… docile. When Eileen read her fairy stories, which Binnie usually despised, she listened quietly.
“I’m worried,” Eileen told the vicar. “The doctor says she’s better, but she just lies there.”
“Has Alf been in to see her?”
“No. He’s liable to give her a relapse.”
“Or shake her out of her apathy,” he said.
“I think I’ll wait till she’s stronger,” Eileen said, but that afternoon, watching Binnie lying in her cot, gazing listlessly at the ceiling, Eileen sent Una to fetch Alf.
“You look ’xactly like a corpse,” he said.
Well, this was a good idea, Eileen thought, and was about to escort him out when Binnie pushed herself up against the pillows.
“I do not,” she said.
“You do so. Everybody said you was goin’ to die. You was out of your ’ead and everything.”
“I was not.”
Just like old times, Eileen thought and, for the first time since